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I have been divorced for over a year and I have 3 kids.(7,6 & 3) I left my ex because he was abusive.So I wasn't looking for anything.But I ran into an old friend.

I met him in high school when I was 16.We became good friends.I had a crush on him but I never told him. I moved away and we stopped talking.We ran into each other at a different school, good friends again.Then I moved and got married and I saw him once more then left again.

Now 8yrs later I ran into him on Halloween.I saw him and I thought it might be him but wasn't sure.Until he jumped off his chair and ran towards me.We talked for a little while and he gave me his number.

We talked on the phone for hours and days.Then we met at a bar and the first thing he does is walk up to me and hugs me and whispers in my ear "you should have married me", I didn't really say anything and just smiled.And the whole time he kept saying how beautiful I still was.And that he was so stupid for not telling me how he felt then.

Its now 7mo. later and we have been seeing each other since.Spending nights together and meeting each others friends and some fam.They told me he always talked of me all day at work.That he loved me.He would tell me how he would be a great daddy and then told me he wanted us to have a baby.He also told me not to hurt him.

When we first started he lived in another state & was working off shore and said it was hard for him to be with someone because he was always away.So he quit and moved closer and he went back to school to be a teacher.We see each other at least 3 to 4 times a month.When we're together its so good.He kisses me and touches my face a lot and he holds me for hours.Plays with my hair. He told me it feels good inside and it feels right.And he could do that everyday.

He told me he really likes me and that we should have been together all these years.He told me he doesn't want to play games and he's not playing with me.That he will always respect me.I love him.

The problem is that when we're not together we don't even talk on the phone and not that much texting either.When I do call him,sometimes he'll answer but most of the time he doesn't.Its been even more this past month and we've only seen each other once.He called me and then once I called him.He called me sweetie and sexy.

One thing I haven't let him do is meet my kids. Because I was scared that they might like him then he'll leave.And my ex is crazy and doesn't want me with anyone.And the guy I'm talking to is more laid back, loner type,he has never been in a fight and doesn't like violence.My ex is alway trying to beat everyone up.The guy I'm with now loves his fam,he's a nice guy.He told me once he was scared that my ex will do something to me or him.My ex doesn't know I'm talking with someone.

I feel like he's ignoring me.I have 3 kids and a crazy ex and maybe he's thinking about it now.I would wait for him.I'm still trying.Don't know if I should stop.I don't wanna look like an idiot.