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Guy I went to school with, had a crush on for 8years. Super nice guy. Not a player, would bet my life on it.7 years post grad, he begins liking a ton I post on FB, mind you he isn't into being on phone and barely is ever on fb. I message randomly, calls me gorgeous and we agree to meet for a few drinks.
I assume not a date, he calls it a date at least 10x over the course of drinks. Pays, gives me hug goodnight, walks me to my car, texts me how great of a time he had once home.
Next week, texts likes to take things slow, etc. Hangout for netflix/Hangout while I'm not traveling 2 weekends later (I travel a ton for work), first kiss, little bit of fully clothed rubbing, he says, "I haven't taken you to dinner yet, we should stop." We stop, he sleeps over, we cuddle, etc.
5th hangout (6 weeks post first date) we end up having sex. Sex was great, he was very cuddly & nice.
Make plans for me to cook dinner. A few hours before he's supposed to be here, texts, "not ready for a relationship, thought i was, I'm not ready for who I become when I'm in a relationship". Nicely say whatever, asks me why I'm so great?
No contact 4 weeks, messages me super sorry, I'm great, he misses me, should have treated me better, I deserve better. I reply thanks. Messages me 4 days later wants to see me, I reply no bc I have feelings still, he replys he misses me, I tell him I refuse to be his booty call, he says no funny business, I agree. He comes over, kisses my forehead a bunch and is the world's best cuddler. Wake up, hangout, leaves.
Next weekend I text, ask for drinks the next night if he isn't busy. He says yeah proly, am I in trouble? I tell him I just wanna hangout not in bedroom. He understands. Following day, ask him if we're on? Never replied. Several hours later, "I deserve a hell of a lot better than a guy who won't even respond to my text. We've been going back and forth for 5 months and I'm done. Save me some pain, erase my number."
It's been 5 weeks, no contact. Advice?