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Talked to this guy for 2 months. We didn't date yet, but we texted, facetimed over the course of the months and hung out twice. He told me he liked me then told me he will be busy for next two days. Didn't hear from him in 4 days and I texted him. He replied fast saying he's working and asked how i was. Then he stopped texting for another day. I confronted him saying he's stringing me along and called him a kid. He said I was assuming and irrational. I apologized and told him I still felt he didn't want to get to know me. He blew up on me and told me he didn't want to deal with someone he hardly knew and ignored me for 2 weeks. He came back again saying I hope I understand why he gave space. I apologized and asked him I dont want my time to be wasted. If he wants to be friends or get to know me. He didn't reply for a long time. I already knew the answer and told him its okay just delete my number and not contact me. He replied fast again and said Im unhealthy. I told him im just being a girl and feel insecure and that I like him and find him attractive, dont want to be used. He attacked me again. We argued with LONG messages. Told him lets talk over phone, he said okay. Next day he says he's sick and can't make it to a show (no idea about the show) and can schedule to facetime me in a couple of days. I felt like he was mocking me so I told him he can go to hell. We aruged with LONG messages again and that was it. I felt horrible for telling him to go to hell and jail (he sells weed). Two weeks after I sent him an email apologizing. That I have anger issues but I'm working on myself and he didn't deserve that. It's been months and I still feel horrible. I still think he was playing me regardless of him saying he was "truly" busy. I just had a strong gut feeling also that we wanted different things. How can I cope with this? He will never forgive me. That kills me on the inside. Like he said, we barley knew each other, but I shared deep personal things with him.