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So my mom is from downtown Pittsburgh and she is really overprotective. She doesn't let text anyone she hasn't met, she won't let me walk around the neighborhood (we've been living here for two years), and she treats me like I'm seven. She seriously still refers to herself as mommy and reads my text messages. She is always yelling at me for the smallest things, when she lets my sister do pretty much anything. This summer, for example, she was yelling at me for not asking her for help with my advanced reading (but I did), and today, she said my Halloween costume was all crumpled on the floor, then I said it was still in the bag, and she stood up and proceeded to yell at me about my attitude and threatened that she would make me stay home tomorrow (my friend is having a Halloween party, but if she knew that other people were coming she would never let me go), but she's always threatening that she'll cancel everything when I ask her why I can't do something. She says that she does it out of love, but I don't think that you could be so awful to somebody and still love them. Is this emotional abuse?

My sister, Maya, is four years older than me and I'm very sure she hates me. I've actually been afraid to go to sleep with her in the house when she's in a bad mood, because that's just how terrible she is. She always yells at me, ignores me, makes me do things for her, makes fun of me, and sometimes hits me. She has called me stupid on many occasions, and it has been this way since I was about eight or nine. I tried hugging her, and she pushed me away. I honestly can't wait until she goes to college, and I won't miss her. I don't love her. Is she abusing me too?

Also, since I was little I have prayed to die because I have never loved my life. My parents are divorced, and they're always screaming at each other. I had no friends, and lately I've been contemplating suicide, though I know I would never go through with it. I cry a lot, and I think I might be depressed.