Also, what is a high number? I feel like I have had a lot of partners. Most of them were guys I was in a monogamous relationship with. I just feel really guilty about my past and I don't know how it is going to effect my current relationship. I was going through a lot of mental problems during my more promiscuous days and I wasn't getting help. Now that I'm in treatment I'm much better, but I can't get over the fact that I was a slut. I was never that type of girl. I was always good, and now I just feel disgusting even years after everything happened.