I'm almost 20 and I still feel like a freshman loner in high school!!!?

I feel like such a loser.. I'm almost 20, I work minimum wage, and didn't go to college. I regret not going because long story short the friendships I had in high school didn't end up working when we all left. If I went to college, I would've met people. But my problem is, I don't know how.. I don't know how to really have friends because I've been such a homebody and used to being solo. I wish I could go out with friends on the weekends and just have fun and do normal teenage stuff. Not always hanging out with my mom, who I love deeply, watching lifetime/Netflix movies.. I just need friends my age but I always feel awkward, weird, intimidated, and just plain shy.. Don't get wrong, I'm confident but being bullied in my past has made me feel inferior around others.. Am I the only one? Has anybody else felt like this? What should I do?
I'm almost 20 and I still feel like a freshman loner in high school!!!?
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