I’ve been educating myself on white supremacy because of George Floyd. But I have been trying to educate myself before that too. I know that it is not about me - my discomfort and sadness doesn’t matter right now. I have to be willing to be ashamed of my white privilege. But I was already struggling with mental health before this. And now I am more depressed than ever because it’s all this collective depression on top of my own personal depression. But then I know that all these years black people have been dealing with racism on top of their depression. So any feeling and suffering I have is invalid.