Questions: Girl's Behavior

How I non violently silenced a BULLY: PART 1.

So, I can’t remember the quote exactly but the essence is — whatever junk you did to earn their ire, will end up in their books! “ I’m wayyyyy paraphrasing so don’t quote me 💦

& I’m def not referring to slander or gossip…more like a nudge in the direction of “STFU! $hitty stuff you do to other people in life, has consequences.”

Well, I grew up in Toulouse, with my great grandmother from age 4-7 and I loved her her friends loved me my friends loved me I loved them, life was beautiful. She passed, due to sone unfortunately ore planning by my actual parents- whom I never really knew-I fell into the hands of a psychologically imbalanced person and we both fell into poverty.

Coming from another culture another language having been gone schooled and encouraged to forge my own path & now living in constant anxiety bc of my guard tan, well, suffice to say, I was peculiar and poor & for some reason, this did not make me popular. 😂

After a few years of being the school “it girl” for all the wrong reasons- I’m 4th grade, I had attracted attention of a girl who just loved to hate me subsequent to her discovery that I had defined abs (1000 chores & a lean diet will do that 🤷🏻‍♀️) I became her pet project.

My strength is my obliviousness to pettiness bc it does not interest me & for some time, I was literal enough that for the most part her antics just flew right by me and I didn’t care. Eventually she realized subtly was not working AT ALL & became as obnoxious as can be….

I always had a very low threshold for irrational statements. I guess she figured this out snd did her best, & succeeded in getting under my skin. She would do ridiculous things that made no sense & were cruel so the combo was meant to be annoying snd humiliating, and it was. And she delivered this chaos over lunch where I was completely stuck with no exit option.

(continued part 2)

By things I mean trying out new restaurants, going to the mall for shopping, visiting new places, running errands on her own.

I am pretty much like that. I do care about my friends and I do enjoy spending time with them but most of the time it is very hard to decide upon any activity when all four of us are together..

I was wondering whether guys find it strange? A possible turn off?

I wouldn't say I aim to be independent but I must admit that doing things on my own is easier, freeing (not having to rely on anyone, wait for anyone, you do what YOU want).

It does NOT mean I wouldn't want to do things with my boyfriend.

Yes I know all of these online sites are very much the same but some have to be based less of photos and more on actual personality, etc. which adds actual value to a relationship.

I tried Match and found the majority of men were not interesting. Most are only reaching out based on looks & when you get to talking to them they really don't have much to offer an intelligent successful woman except their wallets (unsurprisingly a lot were divorced). When I want a partner who'd contribute to my life & I theirs beyond money it was unappealing.