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My friend and I graduate in two months. We've been friends all four years but got very close this past year. About a year ago, I realized I had a crush on him. That ended in November when I said it out loud and he friend zoned me.
After that, I tried to be like a dude friend, but he insisted on acting like we always had, play fighting, teasing, being touchy feely, basically doing things I call flirting. In my mind this stuff causes sexual tension, so I don't want to do it if he's not into me. I told him this and he said that's how people act when a crush falls through. I don't get that at all.
Two weeks ago he showed me an old yearbook pic of me he had found and put on his phone. He works in the school lib and I guess went through old yearbooks looking for pix of me. He was showing it to all our friends, looking for some kind of reaction, but no one had one. The pic is from middle school but I think it's cute. I don't have braces anymore, my hair is shorter and I've lost weight, but people, including him, say I'm pretty and cute now.
I just don't understand why he has this pic still and why he shows it to people. I asked him and he said it's funny because I don't look like that anymore. Well, duh. I've seen old dorky pics of him that he's sent me.
Is he trying to make fun of me for how I used to look? If he's not into me, why go to the trouble to look through old yearbooks, take a pic on his phone, show it around and keep it?
When I told him I liked him last fall and tried to kiss him he said we coukd kiss at graduation, as friends. Last week he asked if I still wanted that, but before I could answer, he said he would still go through with it but he was dreading it. So I said forget and got hurt.
Is he just being a giant dick? If he thinks I'm pretty, why would he "dread" one kiss? I fee like he's always trying to neg me and make me feel bad.
What's up with the pic thing? That seems creepy and stalkerish to me. Who does that and wh