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This guy liked me for several years. We'd always had a flirtatious relationship, but it was never very clear who liked who. We dated briefly when we were in high school (2 weeks) and then I broke up with him because I was afraid it would hurt the friendship. We still remained really good friends after that, best friends even. I had no idea he liked me though.

Anywho, some time later I figured it out... and I started to like him back. Over the summer we briefly got together for a couple weeks. Seriously the happiest time of my life so far. Eventually I went back to school (college) and he went back to his. 4 weeks later we were chatting online when he told me that everything that had happened between us was just subconscious revenge and that he just wanted me all along.

That really put an awkward dent in our relationship for a year. I finally wrote him to see what was going on because I was really confused... He admitted that he had liked me for a very long time, but that the feelings had faded... and that he had wanted a girlfriend and I was just suddenly available so he thought he'd go for it. He said he was just using me because he was lonely. Thing is, when we were together, we never even kissed... so... I don't know how that means he was using me. We were best friends, so our conversations didn't really change much from what they had been.

So now I am at a loss... After he admitted to "using" me or w/e he did, I told him we had to go our separate ways. He tried really hard to make things work but kind of eventually gave up. He said it was all a mistake and that he had to have liked me a little, but that he definitely didn't anymore. Seems like every time we are talking face to face he has a different story, but when we're away he's kind of harsh... saying he's busy all the time etc.

So to skip to the present, he and I are kind of not really friends anymore... We say we're friends... but we never talk or keep in touch or anything. I'm not really sure where to go now with this whole thing. I know that we were great friends and I do miss him a lot. I feel like my life was so much happier with him around. My other friends just aren't like me. How do I apologize for being so awful to him? I know he's apologized multiple times and I've rejected him... Can this be fixed?