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I was once called the "virgin hunter" on here. I don't know if anyone remembers me, but years have passed already.

Back when I was 20, I was suicidal because I could not find a virgin to lose my virginity to. I was hospitalized many times.

Long story short, I found a 16 year old girl who was a virgin. I was 20 at the time, so I thought 4 years age difference was nothing. We started to talk and hit it off. We both looked up the age of consent and found it was legal for us to have sex.

We met up. I drove up to her state 7 hours away and we hung out and had sex. We lost our virginities to each other.

The following day, we spent the whole day at the amusement park. It was such a powerful and indescribable feeling. It was almost magical. I could not keep myself from pulling her in and kissing her on the head. She was beautiful to me.

She told me that night she did not want a relationship with me and it broke my heart. We continued to talk for a couple more weeks after until I made her mad and she said she never wanted to speak to me again.

Fast forwarding, 8 months later I drove to her home state and to her home to ssk her out to her prom and apologize. Her dad had me arrested for stalking and harassment, despite me never threatening violence against her.

I have always had poor luck with women. I went all throught my middle school, high school, college-age years, and beyond without ever having an actual girlfriend. Now, I am turning 26 in a few months and still have never had a girlfriend.

I pretty much gave up on finding a woman, especially because I cannot get over her romantic past and because of what happened.