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ok so this is big step for me and i honestly dont know what to really do but my mom just got back in my life and i haven't seen her since my parents split and I was 6 when they did my mom left me literally two days after I was born she left me with my grandparents till I was 5 she has been in and out of my life but I haven't seen her since I was six I'm just now turning 19 this Saturday and I don't know what to do really she says she has really changed and grown up but she has been in jail for drugs off and on and can't seem to get her act together but my half sister says she can see her changing and she really wants to fix her life and mend the broken hearts she has caused but I don't know if I can let her back in I dont want to get hurt again my boyfriend says I need to give it a shot but I don't know I really can't trust her she has broken so many promises she has made i mean i didn't even know who she was when i was growing up i thought my grandma was my mom but my dad has always been around ugh help anyone I really dont know what to do?
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I know im not over thinking stuff but me & my ex dated 2 years ago. we only went on 5 dates but i know apparently he was in love with me & i really loved him too so much & cared. We didn't work out it was long distance relationship but everytime i tried to get back with him he would play games & never took me seriously. He would ignore me, make me feel dead & he knew he hurt me but kept doing it again, he would say sorry but break his promise. i wouldn't hear from him for 3 mths first then he will come back for abit then be gone for another 4 mths. when i was depressed, hurt he would act happy & distant, ignore me, make me feel like im not worth it & rub other girls in my face. I never ignored him before i was always respectful so he did it first. He played mind games. Also on fb he would disrespect women calling them bitches/hoes i knew he meant me as well. He never really thanked me for anything i did for him & just lied.

So when i had enough & was really done with his bs, manipulations he would beg me several times to take him back. i almost did but my parents, friends were all pissed off & told me not too. it can get worse & he sounds abusive. I knew they were right for once because i had a bad feeling he would hurt me again & break promises so i decided not too. He even said how he would meet my parents & talk to him. Then he would look for other girls & if they dont work out he thinks he has control of me still. so when i told him we both tried to work it out but its not working, no matter how hard it is we need to move on. he started to creep me out. this was last year in April & he said if he lost me he would do something crazy go to jail, hospital, etc. he would get into fights with guys & show pics of his bloody fists on fb to show off.

i lost all my trust in him. what i noticed is he got his 2 friends to keep talking to me, harassing me, seeing whats new? if they feel i have a new crush on a guy & am happy they keep msging me.