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I saw this guy for a 1 year and a few months. It was really just an agreement between us two to hook up because we were so attracted towards each other. He is a super hot and I'm pretty sure he found me attractive too. So in this year on Valentine's day he confessed how he feels about me and generally just stated that he feels like we grew super close and that i have become best friend and that he doesn't wanna lose me and he always tells me how he adores me and appreciate my friendship. So I never really thought I would fall inlove with him but after he confessed I really didn't know that I would fall for him but I kept things light as usual. He texts me every single day to ask what I'm doing , how was my day and we would really have deep conversations and would chat about anything. Recently his Granma passed away and he texted me telling and told me how he misses her and when the funeral was and all that. I just showed my sympathy and condolencences to him he says that we should be each other's calmness and speak to each other whenever we feeling down and be positive towards each other. I still stayed inc with him because I was trying to end this thing because I felt way more for him and I know we could never be something more. I actually generally feel for this guy and I did tell him that I can't see him anymore because this isn't fun anymore. So I decided to end things last night through text and all he could tell me was that he apologized for how things worked out. He told me that i should always remember that he will always care for me and I'll always be in his thoughts and so I told him to block me and he did. He also states that he loves me and I should be careful out here. I was really crying my eyes out last night because I know I won't be seeing him anymore, I mean I could anytime if I wanted to but I refuse to go back cause I'm fed up of this friends with benefits.

I've been friends with my bestfriend for over 10 years
We are the same age (25)

I've had 3 relationships
she's never had a boyfriend

she's met all my ex boyfriends

She always tells me that she's not into relationships
So she has one night stands/friends with benefits
Never met any of her guys

But she is bisexual
So she's hooked up with guys and girls
she's kind of a tomboy

I've had some messy breakups
And in every relationship, there's always ups and downs
Its normal
Since she's my best friend, I tell her whenever Im going through relationship problems

But what annoys me is that.. she's always negative about relationships and guys when she's never had a relationship before

She would tell me like:
- oh guys are such idiots/always just want to f**k
- all your relationships are shit and never worked out.. thats why I dont want to be in one
- marriage will never work out, I dont know why people get married
- I love bad boys, I always fall for them
- judging from your relationships, all guys are not worth it
- I dont want a relationship, so Im sleeping around.. so much better
- why do you date gym guys? They are all f**kboys and messed up

It just annoys me when she says those things