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I've known Josh for 6yrs. He really likes me & Im starting to like him. The problem: I have a fiancé who's in jail and we are in love. Josh & Mike used to be best friends. He introduced me to Mike. But Mike (my man) cheated on me while we were on hard drugs, we've been sober for 3 months now. He's been in jail for 3mths, I willingly got help.
I was having trouble w/my emotions, it was physically painful knowing he cheated. The girl started harassing me, I never said one word to her. She's been mean to me since 2007, never even talked to her, still. She did a lot of messed up shit, even broke my ankle. Once Mike was in his sober mind he cried from guilt & the thot of me leaving & he begged me to stay. I know he can't stand her and is doing everything to keep her away, but it still hurts.
I've been with Josh everyday and we slept together a week ago. At first, I felt so guilty, like a piece of shit for doing that to Mike. Then I think how he did cheat & I felt less guilty, I didn't hurt as bad, and felt better about staying with Mike.
Yesterday, Josh begged me to come hang out with him since he was in town. He lives an hr outside of town. He told me to pack a bag & shower @ the hotel, he didn't want to wait for me to get ready.
We get here & hang out. We ended up having sex again. After, he ran to the store while I took a shower. After my shower, I notice he txted saying his roommate needed help and he would be back asap. Hours went by and he didn't come back. He txted at 3AM saying the roads were horrible (blizzarding all night) and would be back in the morning. He did apologize a few times since I'm stuck here till he gets back.
Could I have done something wrong? Is it possible he is lying about the roads & didn't want to come back? Or am I just over thinking this & its all fine?
What is your advice/take on this? Please don't comment on mike cheating or me cheating. I know we are both in the wrong, u have no clue how guilty I feel.
Thank you!

Guy I used to hook up with moved outta state & and about 2 weeks before he was about to visit he called me saying how he was gonna record us having sex & how he was gonna use it as randsome so he could be "GET ON YOUR KNEES!" He plays a lot so i didn't believe it and forgot all about it. Then when he came i was walking to his house and txted him i was near he came outside looking at me from a distance then he RAN back inside SUPER quick. I noticed he was smiling and seemed happy/giggly about something before we had sex. We went in the shower bc i was on my period but i wasn't bleeding so we had sex in his living room because supposedly his mom threw out his bed. I noticed he was being a p*rnstar and some positions made me feel like a sl*t. We kept taking breaks from sex and going in the shower i was just like wtf. And at one point he while we were naked he was looking out the window & said his friend might have stopped by. Then after i was about to leave i heard him say to his friend on the phone "coukd u hear amber?" Is it possible the friend came in and turned on the cameras while we went in the shower or what? How do u think they recorded us?

If your male friends with benefits does the following:
- taking showers together
- watching movies together
- mentioning you in a sentence " I hate sl*ts that cheat. Imagine if we had a quarrel and cheat on me"
- having breakfasts together the morning after
- joking about him "breaking up with me" for me to say that I don't want him to leave me
- saying he doesn't use you, otherwise he would always leave after sex, as there would be no point in staying. but he stays every time. he also wouldn't spend much time with me.
- having walks
- he makes a list of movies we both should watch
- he tell you we don't have to have sex every time he stays for the night
- he says we should get used to simply spend time together (without having sex)
- you both become closer when starting friends with benefits relationship
- acting silly
- he jokingly gets jealous over me and other guys who notice me (or are just my male friends)

BUT:
- he told you before ( 3 weeks ago) he doesn't want to have any relationships as he was heartbroken by a girl who broke up with him 3 years ago and since then restricts himself from relationships
- now he says he got used to me
- he doesn't want to touch or kiss in front of strangers

So what does he actually want? A relationship or just friends with benefits with more benefits? Our relationship is getting beter and closer as time passes.