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Alright, here it goes, I have a big lesbian crush on my best friend. I told her and she said she likes me back, but when I asked her to be my girlfriend she said she just wants to be friends which I can understand because she hasn't taken on the title of lesbian or bisexual, whatever, like I have. But she told me she doesn't like me any more, but at the same time, gives signals that she likes me. We've kissed before and I felt like I had overdosed on happy pills for the rest of the day (we've also kissed after that) She acts really annoyed at me sometimes because I have low self esteem and seems to get really mad at me for almost anything and for awhile has refused to let me touch her. But I was brave a few days ago and decided to kiss her cheek, she squealed and smiled so I take that as she liked it. Also, even though I was annoying her, she and a few of our friends went to play four square in the parking lot and since there were 5 of us, the person not in a square had to stand in the middle and we'd attack them with the ball. So when it was my turn, she yelled "No one hit her!" pretty angriliy, so no one did despite her being annoyed at me earlier. Then I had a panic attack and she attacked like she didn't care but I had a panic attack a few weeks ago at a party and she held me and let me listen to music and slapped the three guys who had scared me. I asked her if she'd rather me do the V thing with my tongue (She hates it) or kiss her when I want to freak her out. She said she'd rather I kiss her. Sometimes she's very distant and aloof, she doesn't get very close to me and yells at me, then others she'll hug me and be super sweet in the way you'd be to your girlfriend or boyfriend. I'm getting a heck of a lot of mixed signals here, can someone please help?

He broke up with the girl and here are the mix signals

I want you signals:

-Texting at 12am to say Merry Christmas

-Staying home alone by choice to say Happy New year

-Came to aiport to pick her up

-Hug her really long and tight with his eyes close as soon as he saw her

-Telling her he is not looking for anyone new until he sort out his issue (with tears in his eyes)

-Not returning her stuff to have excuse to see her again

-Text her everyday and night and more interested in her life

-Indirectly suggesting he can cook for her

-Brought up old memory

-Tells her he doesn't want her as friends with benefits

-Stares at her when they are together

I don't want you signals:

- Break up telling her they clash even they have 80-90% good time together

- During Break up he admit He hate that he is relying on her to grow emotionally and wants to grow alone

- During Break upadmit he has commitmment issue

- After break up and saw her once he hasn't set up the time to drop stuff off or meet up

- didn't say he wants her back