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It's not a question of attraction or lack of interest from the opposite sex but I've felt lately that I am not supposed to get married. Call it intuition or looking to destiny but I have just felt like it's something that is not MEANT for my future.

It's something I DEFINITELY WANT and have always wanted ever sense I was little, the whole happily ever after dream, but I don't think I am supposed to end up single. It's an odd feeling, but I am curious if anyone has ever felt this before.

OK, so I know I'm a bit of an odd bird. I wander around half the day, humming under my breath if I'm not currently bugging someone who doesn't seem busy with anything else. I do like people, but sometimes I just get carried away with my ideas and wanna process it all so that I can share them with someone (you folks who know and "believe" in MBTI might find it easier to think about me as an ENTP). Oh, and sometimes I get WAY too into classes when they interest me.

Now anyway, I was talking to a girl from my class the other day (let's call her Anne). She's a bit crass, but we were friends at one point. She used to be heavily, and I mean HEAVILY bullied by most of the class at one point, but now they're all over it. She's always told me that I was disliked by most people in our class, and I always took it with a grain of salt. However, just yesterday she told me that the guy I have a crush on is ASHAMED of me being around and "ruining his image", oh, and she said that everybody makes fun of me for "dressing like a pauper even though my parents are rich". Everything she said sort of made sense, especially the bit about my crush (I mean, he's been avoiding me for awhile now). I CAN be loud, obnoxious and quite a bit out there, but I never thought everyone would be this much against me.

Then there's other people I asked about this (I'm not really secretive when it comes to stuff I should keep secret for my own good). They all said that I was the "Manic Pixie Dream Girl" brand of crazy and that they would actually LIKE me to socialize with them more. I never said that it was Anne who told me all this, but they all implied that they knew exactly what my source must've been. They were pretty chill about it, and I didn't really get an air of insincerity from them.

I know some people would say that I shouldn't worry about what people might say, but I do wanna fit in. And I definitely don't want people to be embarassed by my LIKING them.

I know this might not be what you were expecting, I do not want to sleep with my therapist and no I am not in *love* with him (not in a romantic way at least).

No I very much have a father complex and he I look up to as a father, I have had for the past few months almost every night in succession had some sort of dream about him I really can't recall much but it involves him and tends to be a nightmare and then he comes in and rescues me and as before it would just be nightmares with me waking up in a panic and insanely sweaty so in an odd way my sleep has improved... but being away from him is truly heart wrenching sometimes and I can't even begin to explain to you the almost grudge like feeling I hold to his very own newborn daughter because she gets to be "his" I actually have a very strong desire to call him dad (Before anyone is like grow up I don't have my father in my life really I only see him once a month and I am 13 it isn't that strange and yes I have a big vocabulary fight me) I am not seeing him currently (complications with insurance so bleh) but I am hoping in the future to tell him but I need others opinions.