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Let me elaborate first.

I treat teens of different ages differently. Teens aged 10-12 are still children (which is totally ok) and thus I do not try to have conversations with them the same way I would someone else.

Teens aged 13-14 are (often) still in the “im different!!! So random!!!” Phase (aka the most annoying phase in which you say shit that will haunt you forever). They are generally insecure as hell too. So I treat them differently. I try to stop them from posting or talking too much sh*t, I realise their opinion WILL change over and over again in life and thus let things slide if they’re not too bad/dumb.

Teens aged 15-16 are the real shitheads. They often engage in drama (and don’t tell me “ughh i hate drama!!”, i don’t care, see**) and are generally just shitty people because they care about themselves and how the world views them most. They lack character, they’re kind of just there.

Teens aged 17-19 are where it’s at. Finally some maturity ACTUALLY starts peaking through. I remember thinking I was sooo mature at age 15, boy was I wrong. Two years and I’m finally only BEGINNING to mature. These are the teens you can actually have decent conversations with, the teens that stop wanting to only talk about boys/fifa/tv shows/whatnot. Character finally blooms.

**obviously everyone is different, but this is what i’ve seen over the years and how i’ve grown to act.

So, do you agree on treating them differently according to their age? (Leaving their individual character out of the equasion) or do you just see them as a “whole”?

First off... me and my boyfriend been togeth for over a year
I had a bad previous relationship which ended 3 years ago
But i still have some trust issues
So i dont fully 100% trust my boyfriend
Over the course of our relationship, he has given me his passwords to his devices (phone, computer, etc)
I was checking his phone the other day and he was searching up girls on his fb and instagram (girls that he knows.. from work, from his high school, from primary school)
But he doesn't talk to any girls.. only the ladies at his workplace (he works in nursing home so majority working are old nurses and middle aged nurses but there are few young girls too)
Im not sure why he did this?
But i was quite jealous and got abit mad so i confronted him about it
Our conversation:
Me - so i know you're talking and searching up girls?
Him - yeh i talk to girls from work only and its all work related
Me - why u searching girls up? I saw your fb and instagram
Him - i dont just search girls up. I search guys up too. Wth?
Me - so u wanna be with those girls u searched up?
Him - what u talking about? I cbf talking about this. I did nothing wrong. Think whatever u want babe.
Me - yeah you're searching up and looking at their photos and all that
Him - think whatever you want. Im not doing anything wrong. I know im not doing anything wrong. I know what i do. Im not cheating on you. You even know all my passwords. Stop being insecure. Are u trying to argue with me like u always do? I can't be bothered arguing right now.
Me - and you liking and commenting girls pictures (*im lying about this by the way.. just wanna see reaction*)
Him - um no i dont. I know if i do, you will go psycho on me like u did before. And i had to spend hours to calm you down. Yea dont have time for that shit so not going to do it.
He was talking to me throughout in a calm tone
Wtf?
Does he seem genuine about it?

So first off.. my previous relationship messed me up big time. My ex cheated on me.. this was 4 years ago. I never loved my ex but still.. it hurts.
So i still have some trust issues with guys
I have been with my current boyfriend for over a year
Ever since my ex cheated, i have been insecure about myself
So I've been insecure during my relationship with my current boyfriend
Recently its been worse
Sometimes i would accuse my boyfriend of cheating.. or doing something dodgy behind my back
Last night he messaged me something " this pic is for you babe😚😚😚"
But i didn't see the picture
So i thought he sent it to another girl and accidently messaged me
So i called him straight away and said "who did u send the pic too? Wheres the pic?"
And he said "i sent u already. I sent u the pic first and then messaged u"
And then i said "now i saw the picture... u sent it after u messaged. Did u send it to the wrong girl? Did u send the pic to another girl?"
And he goes "wtf? I only sent it to you. Maybe ur internet is slow thats why the pic didn't go through. The pic was only meant for u"
And then i said "are u sure?"
Then he said "look if you think im cheating on you, just dump me. Simple. I've told u million of times that im not cheating on u and that i wanna be with u only. If i wanted to cheat, i wouldve done it ages ago. Stop being insecure. Just dump me if u dont trust me and think im cheating"
doesn't that mean he doesn't care?
He doesn't care if we broke up?
Was i in the wrong or him?