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okay, so my boyfriend and I were together 9 months. He’s had major depressive issues, he’s been suicidal, and because of it, we had some problems. Recently, he’s cut off most of his family, and me, and he has apparently been cheating on me (I’m not okay with this I’m just legitimately curious). I haven’t talked to him since I found out. But last week he prank called me 3 times (he left voicemails) and then a few days later he messaged me sounding rather off (he was preaching about how he’s in the hands of Jesus and as happy as he needs to be... he’s not religious AT ALL... and he kept repeating the phrase dreaming is dead), and then he told me he’s moved on and I should too and to leave him alone. What do I take all this to mean? Why would he call me to mess with me if he’s over me? (when he called me he was alone, his girlfriend wasn’t there)

I’ve been with my boyfriend around 9 months now. We’ve had our problems, but he’s been depressed and suicidal for a few months now.
Recently, shit has hit the fan.
-he cut me, his best friends, and his parents out from his life
-he’s been abusing weed and alcohol
-one day he says he loves me and wants to work on us the next he says he doesn’t know what he wants
-he couldn’t sleep for about a week
-he dyed his hair and chopped most of it
-i found out he’s been cheating

the last is the most alarming, because there was a time when some guy tried to come in on me and he thought I️ would cheat on him because this guy is “better” and he cried. This is someone that hates cheating.

but his brother says he all of a sudden isn’t suicidal anymore since this past Sunday (when the girl called me from his phone)

I️ normally would never have any remorse for a cheater but I’m concerned this is happening because of depression

I moved up to my boyfriend in New York after we got back together in June this year. Things were going on okay till I started to feel uncomfortable being sexual around him. He started to make me feel bad because I didn't want to and some nights I would wake up to him trying to spread my legs or keep asking me to have sex with him. Here and there I would let him even though I didn't want to. A few times I try to express myself to him and he would cut me off and leave, which led me to have a few anxiety attacks.
On the 11th of September @3 in the morning I made a little joke, "It's early in the morning I'll use my toy tonight you can go back to sleep" and thought he would kid around with me Instead I get this sharp pain on my thigh. Took me a minute to realize he slapped me after he raised his voice at me. I asked him why he hit me and his response was "I didn't hit you I was trying to tap your butt, but missed." Since that night I couldn't sleep, I didn't feel loved or want to be there anymore. I thought he changed after high school.
In our Senior year late January of 2014 he raped me, but said he was just "playing around and didn't mean to do it." This incident led me to depression and bad habits.
So after he hit me (present) I started to get depressed again, having anxiety, and had nobody to talk to. Since I got there I was mostly down in the basement for the two months I stayed there with nothing to do beside watch youtube videos. I made a mistake in sending a guy photos of me (bad habit), yes I do know it's a form of cheating I made a mistake :(. Soon he found out and told his family and friend what I did and made and a lie; for 3 days I was getting mistreated without knowing why until the day I left. Ever since then his whole family been sending me messages. I feel hurt because they never gave me a chance to speak and when I finally said something they call me a cheater, a scum, slut, liar. While he is the Angel and hero in everybody's eyes. What should I do?