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I've asked this before, but maybe some new answers would be good.

I was diagnosed many years ago with a cancerous brain tumor, and I have gone through a couple of treatments over the past 8 years and things are stable now. I lost a lot of my vision from radiation therapy, but I am able to do most things aside from working in close proximity of people walking around in the workplace or driving a car.

I've been single for several years, and officially dating for a few months about 9 years ago when I was in my senior year of high school. Soon I will be 27, and most of my friends are in a long-time committed relationship living together. I'm not the hottest guy out there, but I am attractive enough for most anyone. My personality might be a little quirky, but I doubt that's the reason I've been single for so long.

I am just wondering if there's any possible chance at my age, and my medical condition if there's a remote chance of anyone finding me desirable enough to be together for a long time. I can't even remember the last time I've felt any romantic affection with someone, and I'm quite hopeless it will ever happen.

Years ago, I tried the online dating thing with some success. But after we got together a few times and they found about me having cancer, even though it's under control, they leave me because they are scared they would lose me in the future and would rather cut it off before any strong feelings started. They were pretty young obviously, but over the past 3 years there has only been a couple meaningless hookups with me pretty much giving in to their need for a fix. I kind of wish it never happened, but I'm just so desperate it's killing me.

So does anyone think it's even possible for anyone to want to spend a long time with someone that has issues like that, or should I just accept the fact I could possibly spend the remainder of my life which would likely be a bit shorter than a perfectly healthy person?