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I want a boyfriend but I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want anyone to touch me ever. I hate the feeling of anyone touching me. But sometimes I do wanna cuddle and stuff but I hate being touched at the same time. I'm pretty evil and can't be nice 24/7. I'm honest AF 24/7. Which can seam rude. I am not mean when it comes to physically hurting unless you start. I don't like humans they are disgusting and evil and I'm better than most people because most people are fake. I'm also evil but the difference is that I'm evil to evil most people are evil to nice. I am planning to die alone. And leave my fucked up family. But I don't know about the die alone part. I do get attracted to guys and want a relationship but I can't be close to anyone and I hate touching. As soon someone gets close I back I can't be in a relationship they are all fake. I used to be nice but traumas changes that. And also I would kill my partner if he cheated on me or tried to kill me/rape me. But I would like to cuddle and stuff sometimes and them not touch at all sometimes it's so confusing.

Obs! And don't suggest therapy or psychology because I've been to like 10 of them and they all sucked. If you do you will be blocked and your comment will be removed.

He agrees that it sucks for us whenever we have the monthly cramps but admitted that guys in society have it harder. This were the examples we gave:

Man doesn't want marriage nor kids, he's a loser wasting her time. She's strining her along and she needs to dump him.
Woman says doesn't want marriage nor kids yet, he should consider her feelings and maybe wait for her.

Man doesn't want sex (or for whatever reason isn't ready) and girl is upset, thinks he's cheating, he's a jerk, etc.
Woman doesn't want, her wish is respected otherwise it would be rape.

Man cries in public and very few people would help him.
Woman cries and she's immediately getting support.

Man gets stalked by an ex girlfriend and is excused by an ''oh she's just a bit crazy... what a drama queen''.
Woman gets stalked by an ex boyfriend and it's immediately taken into concern.

Man wants his child to be born but too bad if the woman wants to abort it, even if behind his back.
Woman can get to decide whether to abort the child or not even though it's both her and his child.

Man insults and screams at the woman and he's a pig for talking to a lady in that manner.
Woman does that and it's an ''What did he do to deserve it''.

Man doesn't get to decide if the relationship progress. The girl has to say yes to being his girlfriend.
Woman doesn't have to do the whole asking out too much (hardly if ever) and can easily get a boyfriend.