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So... I'm not a very confident person in looks or whatever and I do not like to stand out like many girls do. I'm blond, have grey/blue eyes that depending on light could shift to green? And I'm 161 height, if you need ft go look it up on google (I'm not gonna give it to you because I'm writing this and trying to get over this...) Anyway I think I have a strong personality. I'm a gemini, I can get kinda aggressive, very actually if my stress level is very high, which is not hard to reach that level.
I love anime (don't matter the genre after watching corpse party) I love gaming but I cannot find the time anymore unless it's summer/winter holiday.
I like loose clothes but my mom and sister sometimes get tired of me being so casual to school and want me to dress "prettier" and with tighter clothes? So I do and look a bit more feminine and I guess girlier.
I do not wear makeup but if it's a spacial occasion I'd wear very light makeup.
I do not know what type of skin I have... I don't really take care of it (I do not put cream on it after each sower to hydrate it etc).
I'm very slow at catching jokes... dirty ones specially. Though lame ones I get them (usually) and could laugh pretty hard.
I like to read, I love photography and art and I'm pretty good at it, still a HS student (17 very soon).
I love children and have an incredible patience. I think I'm pretty caring and a great listener when people have trouble (emotionally or whatever) but giving advice... not so good.
I know this is not the best way to give myself confidence but hum I don't really care what people think but I believe it's nice once in a while to know what people think of me. I really want your answers to be sincere.
I get anxiety/panic attacks sometimes (I've gone through 4 already in the past year-it just started).
I'm one of those people who will keep everything inside and then explode with emotions and cry for 30 mins to and hour.
been single my 17 yrs.
Oh I don't flirt.

back in December someone added me on Skype and it looked fake but didn't take much notice and everything was going ok and he asked me out and I said yes anyway we became freiend and then we started dating on and off only cause I didn't know what I wanted and we dated for 4 months and it got mean toward the end when he threatened to kill himself cause he didn't want to loose me and I called the police etc and I'm slowly getting over it and I came back off Easter holidays and my ex bf Cameron asked me do you know jay and I said don't know why and he told me and then a few days later I found out more and it turned out to be the boy who was using that fake account on Skype is my ex jay has pictures of me on his laptop and iPod he told his mum that were going out when were not and he always talks about me to Cameron and searches me up on the Internet and stuff but what I don't get is he's giving me mixed signals like he wanted to go out with me and he went and asked out another girl.oh and he has a girlfriend now.but said maybe to my ask out.

I feel so lonely that I've lost my boyfriend and now he has a new girlfriend it hurts i just dont know what to do anymore i still do believe there is hope with us two.So back in December someone added me on Skype and it looked fake but didn't take much notice and everything was going ok and he asked me out and I said yes anyway we dated on and off only cause I didn't know what I wanted and we dated for 4 months and it got vicious toward the end when he threatened to kill himself cause he didn't want to loose me and I called the police etc and I'm slowly getting over it and I came back off Easter holidays and my ex bf Cameron asked me do you know jay and I said don't know why and he told me and then a few days later I found out more and it turned out to be the boy who was using that fake account on Skype is my ex jay and has pictures of me on his laptop and iPod he told his mum that were going out when were not and he always talks about me to Cameron and searches me up on the Internet and stuff but what I don't get is he's giving me mixed signals like he wanted to go out with me and he went and asked out another girl and I when I ask him out he says maybe I just don't get it?

Hi, back in December someone added me on Skype and it looked fake but didn't take much notice and everything was going ok and he asked me out and I said yes anyway we became freiend and then we started dating on and off only cause I didn't know what I wanted and we dated for 4 months and it got mean toward the end when he threatened to kill himself cause he didn't want to loose me and I called the police etc and I'm slowly getting over it and I came back off Easter holidays and my ex bf Cameron asked me do you know jay and I said don't know why and he told me and then a few days later I found out more and it turned out to be the boy who was using that fake account on Skype is my ex jay has pictures of me on his laptop and iPod he told his mum that were going out when were not and he always talks about me to Cameron and searches me up in the Internet and stuff but what I don't get is he's giving me mixed signals like he wanted to go out with me and he went and asked out another girl.oh and he has a girlfriend now.but said maybe to my ask out.