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I'm not talking about online dating sites I'm talking about dating a girl from another country only online until you get a chance to meet in real life. I've done it once before so I'll share my story, I know that everything about this seems cringy and weird as hell but please read
On the beginning of scholar year in 2017, my friend showed me a YouTube channel called poppy, just Google it if you don't know her the channel is so weird. So I don't know why but I became a fan and i entered something like a fandom on Twitter and I started texting some of her fans and well, i texted a girl named Victoria and we were friends ever since
She was really shy and actually she was lonely in real life and doesn't have too many friends at school. She was pretty thoug and I really liked talking to her and we almost texted 15 yours a day... anyway so after some time I told her that I love her and I knew she did as well so we started dating.
She was perfect in my books, we didn't even video chat or anything like that but I mean her character. She was everything i ever wanted. She was a little bit shy, she was like cute and was a little bit worried sometimes and tells me about her problems and she was also religious like me but she wasn't like way too religious which was great she was also she was one year older. She was from Poland.
But after some time I had some problems with the fans, they were annoying and kept calling me stuff like homophobic and also were attacking my friend Jake. So after some time I noticed my Ex was changing, she started being like more popular and didn't even want to talk to me, she started being anorexic as well, that cute shy schoolgirl started cussing and saying weird stuff and liking "really weird" tweets. After some time she told me she wants to break up and I was shocked because she was always the one telling me "please promise to never break up"... I I beleive it's this crazy lesbian that made her do it, that woman always hated me

I'm really unsure about this. Here's a few examples about why:

1. I just broke up with my ex 3 days ago and I feel like my life is in shambles. She was a really good girl, had all the qualities I was looking for, but she said she doesn't think she deserves me. To "recover", I went out to the club with a couple of guy friends from work and ran into the girl I liked before I met my ex. I was drunk and couldn't stop thinking about her. The girl I used to like turned out to be almost everything I don't want in a girl. But while I was drunk and even hours after I sobered up, I caught feelings for her again. I almost drunk texted her several times. Do I really like this girl or is this me being drunk messing up my judgement?

2. Back in college I liked this really popular girl. I slid in her Instagram DMs but she called me an asshole and said I was lucky to get a reply. Two days later she's back in my DMs sending me thank you messages with a bunch of crying face emojis. I asked her what she's thanking me for. She said "Sorry. I was drunk." Ever since then, she's been liking most of my Instagram posts. Especially the ones I post with my family. Does she really like me or is just embarrassed she messaged me drunk?

3. One of my co-workers is constantly sharing stories of bad run ins with guys. I think she likes the bad boys. One time when she was drunk she took a fake Uber from one bar to the next and gave the driver her number. He catcalled her and she got in the car. She called him a good Samaritan. But another time she met a guy at the DMV and he left a note on her car saying call me, but she thought he was creepy and a pedophile. No matter whether she's drunk or sober, she's always bragging about the bad boys.

So what do you think? Does being drunk enhances how we truly feel or make us stupid?