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This will be a long ass story..

I used to fancy this guy and we went on dates but nothing happened, no kiss no nothing except for cuddling a bit. I got bored because of it (scorpio) so I was kind of like okay byeee. And when he wanted to meet up again I said i wanted to but was busy (didn't want to reject, he's amazing).

Then a while later I felt like I needed to see him more, so I went swimming with him and a mutual mate. I don't know why but I felt like he didn't like my body? We hung out alone anther time which was probably a mistake because we were both very tired and didn't talk much, creating a bad memory (subconciously).

Then, a few weeks ago, i hung out a lot with previously mentioned mutual friend. After a long time of flirting we eventually kissed, but right after i knew that this relationship wouldn't last long and we still have two years of school left together and i couldn't lose him as a friend. I also saw the other guy on insta and that just brought back a lot of feelings..

so i'm crushing on him. Again. And I want to make it work this time, yet I don't know if we still have a shot? I texted him to ask how his vacation was etc, he responded but was busy helping a friend with something so was a lik side tracked. He did send the 😊 Emoji which i consider to be flirty. I asked him to help me workout as well, since he's studying to be a pe teacher and he even made a schedule for me! He thought about what kind of exercises etc. It was so sweet.

So, what do you think?