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You need to know, i am in a kind of relationship with this guy i met for some months now. We are not officially dating and we decided that we won't change that so soon. We are just like a couple.
i have feelings for him -i dont love him but there is something and he is the best thing that happened to me, and I also got the vibes that he likes me, too.
To the story: we had prom. I was there with some of my friends and he was there with his and we have seen each us there just for a second.
One friend of mine had a big crush on my other friend and i shipped them a lot. At one point me and him were alone on the dancefloor and we talked about his crush and i told him what to do to get her and so
- i should mention that we both were little drunk BUT i am not gonna blame it on the alcohol - we were dancing and having fun and suddenly we were making out... it was for about 2 minutes till i stopped it bcs i realized that thats a huge mistake.
My „boyfriend“ found out about it and he run over to my bestfriend... he was maaaad and he also had tears in his eyes... he talked to her snd he told her that i should not call him ever again... he indirectly said that he is done with me.

I texted him and called him a lot but he ignored me. He didn't want to see me.
I am so sorry, and i reget it soooo much... i dont know what happend to me or why i did it and i can't justify nothing... i know it was a mistake and that i hurt him bad but i dont want to lose him. He means so fking much to me.

You have to know i dont have a lot if experience with dating and stuff like that, and that i am actually always loyal and a romantic type person... I've risked a lot for him in the past months, just to be with him.
It was planned that i will save myself till marriage but i was ready to give this up for him -thats how much he means to me bcs i would never sleep with someone i dont trust or have feelings for

He was my first time for everything and i dont wanna loose him.

Okay so there was this guy I had a strong connection with but about a few years ago when I asked him out, one of the new girls at our work had already stolen him and before I knew it he was dating her. So I just gave up on the idea of him. I couldn't bare seeing them on Facebook though when I searched him up. And I became jealous of her! Well later on it was obvious I wanted him and I gave him a longing face when his girlfriend was near him and so she became jealous.
After like a few months of jealousy I began to find me my own guy and that's when I met my husband now :). Before I married my husband I was forced to work in the same department as the past guy. And there was obviously still a liking of him because I never got closure but the past guy started flirting with me and getting to know me but it was already too late. He knew I had a boyfriend and he still had his girlfriend but once I got married I left the department to avoid temptation and now I'm quitting the job.
I'm quitting the job because I know the past guy still likes me and it's just creating awkward tension. I don't want my husband being brought into the drama and I don't want to lose my husband. I know that the past guy will lose out because he missed his chance on me but I'm leaving the job site because it's just drama, tension stirring. I don't want to be caught up in a struggle on who wants me or likes me. I've already chosen my husband. To the past guy, I'm the woman who got away... but to my husband he keeps me :)! Do you guys think I'm doing the right thing by quitting and leaving the job site?
But I'm leaving the job site because my heart is too big. I care for so many people. And I don't want to worry about what the past guy thinks because if I do that I'm putting more focus on him than my husband. So in order to strengthen and save my marriage I'm leaving the job site :)!