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I was diagnosed with Bpd. Doc told me Most if not all sufferers have been sexually abused as a child. But I don't remember most of my childhood. I have a few memories of being abused by kids my age.
I have one REALLY VAGUE memory in which I was touched by someone really older in a non-innocent way. But it is a really vague memory and maybe it is not what I think it is...
He is still alive and is a relative and I get weird feelings when I am around him. I don't want to see or be near him to this day. I can't explain it to my family so I avoid family meetings because of him.

I have all the signs of being abused like:

I feel so strongly about kids. I feel they should be completely protected from the world.

I don't like seeing people getting close or touching kids even innocently.

I don't like touching, kissing kids.

I get jumpy at normal noises.

I don't like people touching me from behind.

I have sexual fantasies of rape.

How can you be certain if you were abused? Do you think I should try hypnosis therapy or give him the benefit of the doubt?

Guys, if you're really interested in a girl, is it more likely that you will be less flirty and not make any sexual innuendos with her so as not to turn her off by thinking you're only interested in her physically?

Would you likely try to play it cool like tell her that you're looking forward to coming back to the city after being away for a while? It's quite obvious that you're implying that you want to see her. You've already asked her out at that point and would initiate texts to her.

Also, would you hold back on the flirtier emojis especially early on? This guy sticks to the classic smileys earlier on and only used the blow kiss emoji much later. He'd also only use them as a parting wish occasionally and they only happened after 1month ish.

I feel like he's taking it slow (almost like starting off as friends) and then escalating it to 'I like you more than just friends' territory?

I've been talking to a guy for a while - we met 2 months ago and haven't had a chance to meet in person due to clashing schedules. We were both initially away for work and couldn't meet but as of late, its my schedule that is the hectic one. I've cancelled and rescheduled a few times but he has always been forgiving about it until the last one. He's not the most expressive person but would check-in before scheduled dates and seems to be getting more comfortable with me over text.
E. g only ever used the classic smileys but after a while, it was the kiss face emoji.

Anyways, I've explained my recent flakiness and told him things are crazier now as I'm going away for work. I think he assumed it was permanently (as i did mentioned I'd like to move away sometime) and told me that is really far and asked if that is what I wanted. I told him it was for 2 months ish and he said that is quite brief and that it will be fun. He also told me to let him know when exactly I'd be back/ available for a meet.

I told him the details and he said hopefully it will be love at first sight then?

Is that a passing comment with no meaning to it or is it reflective of how much he likes me/wants this to go somewhere?

I've been trying hard to find signs of him being a player as he has the makings of it but am drawing a blank.