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I had some family issues that affected me. I had a boyfriend with whom I broke up because in puberty I realized I never wanted to have sex with him. He was a great guy, I still regret having hurt him. After that I rushed into a relationship with a really hot guy I had deep emotions to, we dated a year, he abused me and humiliated me but I didn't realize it back then. I wanted to give my virginity to someone I'd eventually marry. But I gave it to him in hopes he'd connect with me more because I really wanted to marry him. He dated me a year. Had some kind of one time entering me sex and broke up with me. Now I am dating the love of my life, my actual future husband. He knows I wasn't 100% virgin but no details because I felt so much regret I couldn't tell him all. My friends have married their first kisses or first sexs. I regret not telling my boyfriend but it's visible he prefers not to know the details. Also I hate myself for ever being with that jerk ex. Am I a bad person?

I was seeing a guy that I met on Tinder who was the most nicest and sweetest guy I ever dated. He was also very innocent, he's only ever been with one girl, he is very cautious about every decision he makes, he strictly doesn't want to drink, smoke or go to parties. I thought it was cute how he stood by his morals and I respected that. I am not a big party girl or a big drinker but I wondered if our differences would be a problem, because I do drink occasionally, I don't mind parties, and I know when the rules can be bent. We ended up meeting a few times just to hangout and the third time we met up, we had sex and we both enjoyed it. After seeing each other a few more times and talking about really serious things (mostly coming from him), I asked him if we were exclusive. l didn't mean to rush anything, but I was confused as I was still actively on Tinder. He said that is what he wanted, but he said he wanted me to get tested for STD's before we became exclusive. I thought this was weird since we already had sex with protection, but I thought it was a fair request so I did get tested (I am clean).

Anyway, before my results came back, we had sex a second time and I went down on him. After the sex, it was clear that he wasn't okay. He was upset that I went down on him, in the chance that I had an STD. I didn't really think about it when I did it, cause I figured we already kissed anyway? and before I did it, I showed clear signs of what I was going to do and he had plenty of time to say "no". When he told me that, I did not react well cause I was embarrassed by the rejection and was angry because he kept bringing up the testing. It made me feel like he had a certain assumption of the kind of person I was, basically we got into a fight (over text) and he took it very personally and to heart. After we cooled down we talked it over and he said that "He needed space and time to think." Its been 5 days since, and I haven't heard from him. Did I lose him?