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Can someone please help me? Should I leave my friends with benefits?

Context: We flirted for 2 work shifts and ended up in bed together after a drunk night out and now its been 2 months of friends with benefits.

- He takes me out for drinks, he pays & calls them dates
- We cuddle even on my period
- He tells me that he doesn't want me to leave when I'm with him so I end up spending another night
- He makes me breakfast, lunch and dinner if I'm there
- We kiss and hold hands in public
- Every time he looked at me in bed, he tried to kiss me and got all shy when I brought it up with him.
- He started smiling & when I asked him why he said it was because of how I looked up at him
- I tell him that
- When we showered together & I was on my period, he played "Bleeding" by Leona Lewis so cute! I just had to say it!

But
- When he took me to an amusement park where you apparently take your future wife, he said that I was only an option but he knew that he would have the most fun with me. I kinda subtly pushed him into taking me though.
- He didn't seem too happy about meeting up with me but I did get mad at him, in the beginning but became ridiculously cute.
- He has rejected me twice before
- He has huge commitment issues from being abused by his exes

Context: We flirted for 2 work shifts and ended up in bed together after a drunk night out and now its been 2 months of friends with benefits.

- He takes me out for drinks, he pays & calls them dates
- We cuddle even on my period
- He tells me that he doesn't want me to leave when I'm with him so I end up spending another night
- He makes me breakfast, lunch and dinner if I'm there
- We kiss and hold hands in public
- Every time he looked at me in bed, he tried to kiss me and got all shy when I brought it up with him.
- He started smiling & when I asked him why he said it was because of how I looked up at him
- I tell him that
- When we showered together & I was on my period, he played "Bleeding" by Leona Lewis so cute! I just had to say it!

But
- When he took me to an amusement park where you apparently take your future wife, he said that I was only an option but he knew that he would have the most fun with me. I kinda subtly pushed him into taking me though.
- He didn't seem too happy about meeting up with me but I did get mad at him, in the beginning but became ridiculously cute.
- I feel like Im pushing meeting up more but he's the one who asks me out
- He has huge commitment issues from being abused by his exes

So I’ve caught my boyfriend texting other girls in the past. But it was a looooong time. And since then he’s let me have access to his social media. I know his phone password, Instagram password, and he pretty much lets me check his phone anytime I want.

the only password he won’t let me have is his Facebook. He gave it to me twice and then changed it right after both times.
and of course my insecure ass assumes it’s probably because he’s texting girls

so I made a fake fb (along with an IG) to message him and flirt a little bit. I started with “you look super familiar” which he reponds “you do too. I think we were friends on my old Facebook”

the conversation was mostly him asking me questions. I asked him a couple times if he has a girlfriend which he didn’t answer.
he even kept asking for us to talk on FaceTime. and then he says “Btw you realize we can only be friends 😂”
and I get a little relieved.

But then not that much later he asks “are you freaky or shy”
which like... is not really a friendly question.
thats all he’s said, he hasn’t responded to me despite being online.

he has suspicions that the account is fake, so I can’t keep it going much longer but I really want to catch him saying more.

the ‘freak’ question is not good enough for me to jump and call him a cheater. So I don't know.

If I have reached 25 and never dated does this mean I will always be single?
I'm ugly and shy so I can't flirt and no one has ever asked me out.
Now that iv got this old without knowing how to be with someone I wonder if I will ever be able to.
Is there still hope for me or is it too late?