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I'll try to make the backstory brief.
Over 4 years, my ex and I were on and off because of our religious differences. She is a Mormon, and I and a inactive Catholic.
Last time we were together, we got back after 2 years of being apart, and she didn't want to lose me again and we got to the point where I was trying the church and she promised to make it work, and we almost got married.
She changed her mind, went on a mission, ended things with me. Also blaming me for the failure of the relationship. Then she got married a handful of months later.

It's been just over a year since she got married, and I got a message from her. I asked what she wanted, and she hunted me down to talk to me. She tells me her husband passed away from Covid 19. She wants to see if we can put aside the past, and move forward and try again.
She hasn't been gone long enough for me to be 100% over it and most of me is still pissed about what she did. But that part of. me that loves her is still there.
Disclaimer:
The Mormon culture is that f they are married in the temple, they are sealed to eachother. So since I won't convert, she wouldn't be sealed or whatever to me. In her mind, she will be with her husband in the afterlife, and I'll just be around for the physical life I guess.
I told her I'd think about it, and I haven't received more information.

I’m not going to claim I’ve ever made a promise that I couldn’t keep. But for the most part I’ve always been a man of my word. I can count the times on one hand I’ve broken my word in a romantic scenario. It’s probably only happened 2-3 times in my ENTIRE life. This includes going on a date when I found out the girl was much heavier/less attractive when I looked at her Instagram pics vs. what she had on her dating app. I said I would meet up and I’ll follow through. But I’ve had women flake out, ghost, change their mind on me at least 20-30 times in my life.

But I’ve seen countless women still act flaky on this. Most commonly in dating but also in professional scenarios as well.

I’m just fed up with the double standards on all of this. If a guy flakes he’s a dbag and a POS. He’s a “man boy”. But if a women flakes she will get some heat but she still gets more leeway for “being a woman”. Something feminism never acknowledges and always tries to rationalize.