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I ask because I have a very short temper. What caused me to be this way was all of the abuse that I've went through in my childhood and teenhood years. I was abused by my father(physically, verbally and sexually) while my mother neglected me until I was taken by foster parents. Then as I started getting into middle school and high school, I'd get into a lot of fights and even got expelled from one school district. In fact, I can recall my reasons for getting into one of my fights. One was because I was sexually violated by another guy who would constantly touch my man bits in front of all the boys and girls, scorning me for it. I ended up giving the guy a very badly swollen eye, a few missing teeth, a huge cut on his left cheek and a slightly crooked nose, thus sending him to the hospital afterwards.

I really hate it when any person touches me down there. I'll get angry even if it's a girl who's touching me down there(especially since men are expected to feel flattered when a girl is touching a man down there). When a person even dares to try it, I usually end up wanting to punch a hole through a person's face and crush their abdomens(with my arms or my legs) very hard until I squeeze their intestines out.

I'm sorry if I sound scary to you ladies but just please understand where I come from because I was a child abuse(of all sorts, especially sexual abuse) and bully victim. That doesn't mean I'll be unfriendly to every person. I'm friendly to people who treat me with courtesy and respect and can empathize where I come from. Men, you can answer this too to share your experience if you can relate to me. If any of you one to proceed to scold me or mock for me, go for it. I won't say anything as you are only speaking your true mind.

Ok, so there's a girl that I think I like and I want some advice..
So, our school has been having assemblies for the past week from 7 to 10 and yesterday and I was next to a girl from my math class that I don't talk to that much. She was on my right and the way she was sitting, her hand was out and pretty close to mine, so I gently touched my knuckles to hers, just to see the reaction. I did this a few times and she didn't object to it, so I kinda just gently put my fingers over her hand and held it like that for a bit until she made a fist with spread fingers so we interlocked our fingers and held hands for the next 45 min to an hour and she stroked my hand and wrist while I lightly rubbed the outside of her thigh. Afterwards, we didn't say anything at all. She just gave me her phone to put my number in and I did and we texted for a while and I asked her if she wanted to sit next to me today and she said yes.

So, today came and there were 2 parts of the presentation, 1 in the gym and 1 in the auditorium. With the one in the gym, she sat really close to me and our sides and legs were touching for most of the time but I didn't take her hand yet, yet we stayed close. She also stood up for something but sat down even closer to me.
In the auditorium, we were still next to each other and I rubbed her knee with my fingers for 20-30 min and she stroked my forearm with her fingers. I finally got enough courage to touch her hand and we held hands for the rest of the time.

Now, my question: A few hours ago, I asked if I had crossed any boundaries when I was touching her legs or holding hands and she said no. I said that I liked the feeling and she replied, "Haha okay"
I'm just curious if you think that it meant, "Okay, that's cool" or if it was an awkward, "Okay, creep"
I know I'm probably overthinking it, but its driving me nuts. Just ask if you need more info