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It's something I struggled with, thinking of it makes you uncomfortable. You have to indicate which organs you do and don't want to donate down to your skin to your whole body.

I felt guilt about not registering because because I know it is what I would want if given the choice at time of death. Is it fair to leave it up to my family to make that decision at a time of such great grief if we never talked about it? And consulting the family takes time making the organs less viable.

A friend of mine lost a cousin cousin who was a donor and able to give an organ to a niece. It was a sad story but one of a life well lived and helping one in need.

I turned that nagging voice off in my head and signed up to be a donor the next day. My friend convinced me it take 10-15 minutes at most once you decide it's what you want.

before that I was mainly just procrastinating on a topic of discomfort. But as soon as I was done the discomfort went away.

And when I hear stories given to loved ones of the lost about where the organs went and saved I know it brings the survivors great comfort.

It comforta them to know your loss of life continued another. But then also it helps them feel you aren't completely gone. Your heart, that heart beats on. Your eyes, those eyes live on. It's great comfort.

How our friendship ended in bullet points:
1) I asked her for space (not necessarily asking if we could end the friendship) and told her how her depression is slowly taking a toll on my own mental health.
2) She responded in an offended manner and basically assumed that I wanted to end it. She seemed hurt and started to accuse me of using her for my own happiness but that's totally not the point. The point is that I haven't felt her presence as my friend for a long time and I wanted her to see that a friendship is a two-way road and I felt like I was being taken advantage of.
3) Eventually, we decided to end it cause too many bad exchanges occurred. She agreed that she was bad for me and was willing to let me go for my happiness (pay attention to this detail)

We didn't talk for one month and then,
Suddenly last night she texts me a long heck paragraph telling me how she isn't sure how to end our friendship and that she wants the feeling of hatred and anger in her heart to go away. She claims that she has never hated anyone as much as she hates me right now. She tells me that she wishes for me to never do what I did to her to anyone else (?) and that nobody deserves what I did to her (again, ?). Lastly, she wants me to find myself (._.) and she hopes that it is a good person. Not to mention she called me a fake friend and that she has no room for fake friends (which made me wonder why she texted me again after ONE MONTH).

I decided not to reply but can someone please give me advice on how to deal with this? At first, I felt immense guilt but now I'm thinking that I did nothing wrong when I chose to prioritize myself and my family who would rather have me alive. I honestly don't understand why she hates me so much (she says that she has never hated anyone- not even those who sexually harassed her) which makes me extremely uncomfortable because she basically compares me to someone equivalent to a rapist.

Please help. Anything really helps right now. Thanks.