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My boyfriend and I have been dating for two and a half years. I'm now a senior in high school and he is a junior. He has broken up with me twice before...once after a month because we said I love you too soon and once after about nine months. We got back together almost immediately both times.

Other than that we would fight only occasionally about silly things. Most of the time was great he is such a great guy. I love him and he is one of my best friends. He was my first boyfriend and first kiss and everything.

A few weeks ago I got my wisdom teeth out and was upset he didn't do anything special for me. I know it's dumb, but I didn't feel very loved. His brother who doesn't live with them came to visit, so I was thinking that he was spending a lot of time with his brother. I still believe he was. I told him I was upset, and we just got into a little argument for a few days.

Saturday he came over and we finally got some alone time for the first time in forever. Our parents found out we had sex once a couple months ago and stopped giving us alone time. So we talked about what was bothering us and had a fantastic time together...or so I thought.

Yesterday he told me he doesn't know if he loves me anymore. He said he wasn't really feeling anything anymore. It destroyed me hearing that and I can't stop crying. I thought things were great.

He told me he needs to think so I told him well take a break. I miss him so much and it's only been a day.

I asked him to prom and he said yes before this all happened. I don't have another date, would it be weird to still go with him?

So I'm just asking for advice on this whole thing. I'm still hoping he comes around, but do i take him back if he does? I'm going to college next year so it could make things easier but we planned to stay together though that.

*sighs* . so, I can't guarantee that you won't roll your eyes consistently through this post. Bare with me!

A little over three years ago, someone very special and memorable walked into my life and changed my view on romantic connections forever. Although what we had was momentary, I couldn't find it in myself to forget about it. Despite the various other guys I dated, quite a few other guys approaching me, and a one year relationship: something about him and what he brought into my life lingered. For f*cks sake, I have been in a relationship for ONE YEAR, yet there's an element of passion and romance missing that I had with this other man. He is my one who got away. *lol, that's sounds so creepy. I swear, I don't mean it in a 'hiding in bushes' way* I know, for a fact the feeling was mutual: at one point, he shaved the first letter of my name into his head and invited me to go to Spain with him. I guess you could kinda sorta call him a lost love. Basically, what we had ended due to a miscommunication and bad timing. At one point, it was almost as if gravity was pushing and pulling us into each other's paths down to the second. We would just ironically show up in the same place at the same time. I always wished it would happen again : (

Three years later, at an entirely higher place in my womanhood, and this guy still manages to captivate some part of me. My feelings for him remain and resurface, no matter how hard I try to push them back down. I don't know what to do: he's gone, I don't have any of his contact info and he may not even be in the state for all I know. So, every Wednesday and Saturday in the month of March, I will be at the place where we met until they close. If I don't see him, then I'm going to have to move on with my life and suppress those feelings no matter what.

Romantic our just outright stalkery?
Your thoughts on this topic? Any lost love stories to share?
What should I do?