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I enrolled on a level 3 IT course at the only college on my home island. As the first year comes to and end, I'm finding it a struggle to keep up and have come to doubt this career path is for me. I failed my exam, scoring 16/80 marks (33 was needed to pass) I have one chance to retake in May. We also start the synoptic THIS WEEK which counts for 60% of my passing grade. I have no confidence in my abilities; I'll still try, but i'm certain i'll fail both this and the retake.

Unlike others in my class, I don't have a background in IT and coding. I'd previously studied graphic design and applied art in high school and got C grade in both. I also got a pass grade in level 2 fine art at the same college. While considering potential careers, it seemed impossible for a few reasons:

Graphic design is one of the most popular qualifications. There aren't enough jobs for the countless graphic design students who leave college/uni. If i'm serious about this, I'd NEED to stand out among the rest which leads to my other problem; my lack of confidence.

I have no self-confidence/esteem and social anxiety. I've had therapy and am making changes for the better. But I have no motivation because I feel I and what I make are never good enough. Also, i'd likely have to leave my island home and live on my own, which in my current state is an impossibility.

One upside is that i've joined the college gym in hopes of becoming physically fit and thus slightly more confident in myself (it's a start right?). I've made some progress and it's the only thing i'm both motivated and happy to do.

Should I fail, my plan is to get a temp job. This will raise money for gym fees and i'll have money to go out and socialize; pushing me out of my comfort zone in hopes of conquering my social anxiety. Once I'm in a better mind set, healthier and know what I want to do in life, i'll go from there. I did IT because I thought it might lead to a career relating to something i'd enjoy. But now i'm unsure.