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So i’ve been living with a housemate in portugal for the past 8months. We became pretty good friends. But in the last week before I made my return to the Netherlands we started to cuddle every day and the last day we had sex. I did not have any feelings for her all this time, but now I’m back in the netherlands and I miss her every single day. She also told me that she misses me so much.

I want to see her so bad, that i offered her to share the plane ticket cost when she comes to the Netherlands. I don’t feel like i love her or have feelings (i think) because we openly talk about guys/girls we like and had sex with.

I have no idea what to do with this feeling I’m having. Every time we talk I’m feeling okay but the rest of the day i just feel bad or nervous. Like, as if I’am waiting for something to come but it never comes.

According to my sister, my mother, my aunts and my cousins, all of these things are "instant red flags", and if I did any of them on a date, "it doesn't matter what you're like, how nice you are, or how good you look; literally ANY girl would instantly dump you for doing that":

- tucking in my shirt, buttoning my collar, and/or having my trousers pulled up (even when wearing a suit and tie)
- wearing any colors other than shades of grey, blue or brown
- smiling at her
- smiling at anyone else
- looking at her for more than three seconds
- looking away from her for more than three seconds
- not waiting for everyone else to sit down before taking a seat myself
- ordering the best value meal from the menu
- asking the staff about anything
- asking her about anything
- trying to engage in conversation with her
- not engaging in conversation with her
- laughing at anything
- failing to make her laugh
- making any jokes
- being too happy
- being too serious
- not paying enough attention
- paying too much attention
- looking 'out of it'
- looking like I'm too 'with it'
- not finishing my drink first before starting to eat, or vice versa
- spilling anything, even if it's a single drop
- holding my cutlery incorrectly
- putting my cutlery down incorrectly

And many, many more. So many. Are all of these true? And if they are, then just how in the hell is it supposed to be humanly possible for any guy to have a successful date with any girl? Tiny accidents and missteps will always happen, things will ALWAYS go wrong, and there's nothing I'm humanly capable of doing to stop them from happening. I'm not perfect. I can't be perfect. So should I just give up, knowing that any girl will instantly reject me and/or dump me the second that I make the tiniest little 'mistake', no matter what? Why even try?