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I've always felt sort of "fortunate" that I am a female homosexual, rather than a male one, ever since I became cognizant of my attraction--during the onset of puberty. Both has negative stereotypes placed on them, like flower-boyish or tomboyish, mainly due to the media. However, men, in general, are expected to always be unfeeling, to bottle up their emotions, and definitely not to compliment the same-sex.

There are noticeably fewer restrictions on girls, and they have the privilege of hugging other girls, calling each other "pretty" or "on fleek (perfect)," and etc. I would often find myself becoming enchanted by another girl yet don't have to worry about being called "gay" for staring at her. Even if a guy looks at another guy for five seconds, there would already be a problem.

Plus, I am a naturally jubilant kind of person. I can't help but giggle or blush when other girls are around; most of them just think that I'm "childish" and nothing more. I also don't "act" like how some people may think lesbians behave, as in I'm not "masculine." Once again, everyone remains oblivious simply because they think it's "cute" for girls to be shy around boys. I even inform my peers that I don't plan on wedding nor dating, and they think it's because I'm just too innocent.

I can't imagine the taunting a guy would receive if he said "I'm scared of girls" or "No, I don't want a girlfriend." From my demeanor, most people just assume that I'm a timid girl who acts weird around other girls because she doesn't know how to talk with people. Partially true.