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This guy and I make lots of eye contact at work. I notice when I talk to him his eyes dilate and his face gets red. We don’t talk much though. We are both super shy. He always stands right next to me when putting stuff away or reaches for the shelve right under me or accidentally bumps me or brushes on me. He sometimes has a half grin. Or smiles. Or has a blank face. I asked him if he needed help today and he said yes please and then asked if I can also help him do dishes with a winky face lol. I know that he did have a girlfriend but she hasn’t posted a picture of them on her Instagram since February 19th so I’m not sure if they are still together. He also offers to help me with almost everything. He sometimes stands right behind me and reaches for the counter to put dishes away. Or cuts in between me and another girl with his body facing mine and smiles. His mother works at the same place and she just recently starts to smile and wave more towards me. He doesn’t act like that with any other girls. He is really cute too. I had a sex dream about him the other night. I just hate how painfully shy I am. There’s been times we ran into each other and he was talking to me and looked like he was gonna kiss me. He’s also super busy with school. He acts polite around me too. I also find that he waits around until my station is all cleaned and done before he clocks out (even if his is previously done) and he waits like 30 seconds after I walk out to clock out before he tags along. Another coworker is friends with the girls Instagram that I stalk and she wants to ask if they are still together but I kinda don’t wnana know because that would ruin all attraction towards him

I've kinda been wanting to have sex with my friend. We are both girls. We've joked about it a lot and have had real conversations about it the other night at the bar.
Now.. should this actually happen.. nothing would happen. We would be able to even if we both have boyfriends. Which we do.. our men both have the same rule.

"As long as I get to watch."

Only thing is, as much as mine claims that, he does tell me he doesn't want anyone else having me. He selfish, and I love it.
Now the only reason I'm opposed to it, i dont think i want her boyfriend seeing me.
I guess that is the problem. I wouldn't mind just doing it without them watching. (Obviously I guess..)
Anyhow. I've thought about it, if we would have sex, with or without the men watching, would it really be just sex?
In the hypothetical conversation of doing so, me and her have already promised each other that it wouldn't change anything or hurt our friendship.
But if we would, could we really do it as friends? Or is it more so a possibility that one of us would end up falling?
I dont want to ruin our friendship. I won't if I can avoid it.

What do you think?