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My ex boyfriend is abuser. He also cheated on me, and threatened to expose my nudes (to make things worse, he is a cop!) ... And, of course I deleted all my contacts with him, and for 4-5 months it was all okay, I stopped having feelings for him, even though he continued to message me few times a month (and he still does) . And every time, we end up having an argument, about why we broke up, why don't I want to be with him again... He always says that he changed, that even though he did have side chicks he always loved me and he always ended up coming back to me, because I'm the only one who understood him etc. I am 99% sure that it is not true, but lately I kind of started missing him and thinking about him. Apart from things he has done, he always was really peotective and nice to me, and never hurt me beside things I already mentioned. I know, I don't have self respect, I am stupid for missing an abuser, but it's really not my choice, I just can't go on without him. I'm really afraid that the next time, I'll be able to forgive him. Should I do it? Do you believe he deserves another chance?

So guy finds me at work (a stranger) and goes out of his way to get my number and we start talking. Nothing steamy, and after a few weeks, agree to try and meet before i go back to college. He then goes on to ghost me a few days before our meet up date, and i go back to school. After a few months, he reaches out asking whether i would find him attractive if he gained wait, and saying stuff how he felt he was to insecure to be with me? Then when I vent my frustrations he replies months later apologising. Then i ignore and then another few months go by and he's asking saying, "I have been and I would like to get to know you better if your still interested. I've been thinking about you a lot lately, just hmu sometime please 😃". And to add, he's been looking at every snapchat post of mine lately, even when i thought i blocked him... I only deleted him off by accident. Now I dont know how to feel. I really liked the guy at first, and have never had a boyfriend or any male attention before... But I'm insecure and paranoid, and this behavior just seems to just scream ignore, but if he was genuinely insecure, then i dont want to make the wrong choice and dismiss him... Should i try reaching out again? I just S dont know why im so compelled to keep talking to him?