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I remember when I dated these two girls.. (No not at the same damn time it was separately) I dated them and when they both broke up with my ass they went to another guy. I was soo sprung and inlove that I pulled out all the tricks in the book to get each of them back, I sent flowers and can't and I'm very poetic and I showed them I really cared and I'm sorry for the way I've treated them. I even watched the food network channel and made italian food and stuff and one of the girls loved sushi so I learned how to make sushi... I was desperate to get those girls back. I swore I was winning because they were hangin out with me and going places with me and coming over and saying all this sweet stuff, dedicating songs to me and shit lol! then one day they each chose the other guy. It happened TWICE!!! I was destroyed on the inside and I isolated myself for months!. only work and home no parties. And I drank a lot. (Long story short), It hurt soo much on the inside that I began to hate them because I felt abandoned and betrayed. Losing a girl to me is nothing but Losing someone I love with my heart and soul is like someone cutting off my arm or a leg... It's bee a long time but I still hate them til this very day and I'd probably let them die If they were hanging off a cliff. Is it just me that feels this type of hate or are there others out there that share my passion?

I had the pleasure of meeting an angel on February 14 2014, and she gave me the best year of my life and showed me how to love again. 3 months into the relationship I saved a video and naked pictures of a girl I once used to have sexual relations with in my email as well as a topless picture of some random girl off Instagram. That day I felt bad about what I did and deleted everything from my inbox, but my girlfriend stumbled across them still. She did some investigating and found out who she was, and out of fear of losing her I called that other girl and told her to block my girlfriends number so we can move on past this and keep my girlfriend. She did not, she spoke to her on numerous occasions, but me and my girlfriend tried to work things out. I can't remember if it was before or after this but I contacted her and another girl that I was in New York at a time, but failed to meet up with them or have another conversation with them since the initial contact. 6 months later and my girlfriend is trying to leave me because I didn't grow up fast enough, and I didn't find employment fast enough and I didn't want to move away to Washington fast enough. Once again I fight to work it out and had 4 amazing days planned surely to win her back. I need to add during the first day of her trying to break up with me I reached out to the same girl who I had saved the video and pictures of to let her know I was single and that I wanted to meet her the next day, but when the time came to see her I realized I loved my girlfriend way too much to just give up like that. So I texted her that I was tryin I work things out with my girlfriend and she said she understood. So I'm on my way to see my girlfriend on a Friday to take her out shopping to kick start off the 4 days but then the girl calls my girlfriend 20 minutes before I get there and has a mouth full of poison about me to my girlfriend and now my girlfriend hates me, she blocked me and wants everything back. Is it over?