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I gotta start with this there is a language and culture barrier. I have known him nearly 4 years from a club where I dance with my friends. He consistently just talks to his male friends from Bosnia. I always tried to talk to him and it’s always small talk and he would sometimes buy me a drink. Talking was tough. Later through Facebook I reached out to him and he came to my house to fix a leak and my floor. But he gave me a hug and a kiss and said “how are you sweetheart” The floor needed to dry after the leak was fixed and he just had coffee with me not cause the floor was wet but because I asked him to come for coffee and he stayed and visited with my family and everything. We just had these coffees nearly every morning and he would come see me at night and have a drink with me and watch tv. He told me about his life the genocide the time he got shot in the jaw and his face torn open and when I was massaging him he told me not to us lotion on his legs because he was hit by a chemical bomb and it brings back the chemical burning feeling if there is cream and he told me about the bones that were broken coming out of his skin on his legs. Here he has sole custody of his kids his kids are his world. And his business. He makes time for me. And he drops everything for me and if my friends or family need help. He says he doesn’t really like a lot of people but he will help me and people close to me whatever they need. He doesn’t say he loves me. But I say it and he agrees the feeling is crazy. I feel like he will take more time to introduce me to his kids because of his life. And he indroduced me to his worker friends and we laughed a lot and I know obviously his bar friends but I feel like I need to just treat this differently because of all he has been through right? He hasn’t asked me to be his girlfriend but I just feel it’s implied.

Let me explain my situation before you vote. First, if you look up Touka Kirishima, I have her hairstyle. My hair is cut into a short bob with long bangs that cover one eye. When my hair was cut into a pixie, I dyed it black and I loved it. Since I'm naturally blonde, I had to dye my eyebrows and wear makeup so I don't look like Marilyn Manson. My hair grew out into an ugly brown, and I tried putting purple over it and I didn't like it. The only problem I have with black hair is it's really hard to get out but I already grew out a pixie, which was torturous but bearable. Here's the pros and cons of my natural hair color and dying my hair black again.

Pros of blonde hair:
• Doesn't cost money which is nice because I don't have a job yet.
• No need to worry about my eyebrows.
• Can easily dye it another color.

Cons of blonde hair:
• I have to grow out my hair again.
• My natural blonde hair is ugly and boring.

Pros of black hair:
• Easy fix to my current hair situation.
• My favorite hair color because it makes me look mysterious and badass.

Cons of black hair:
• My family bullied me over it calling me a witch and shit.
• I have to convince my aunt to dye it because it's the cheapest.
• Hardest to get out or cover up.
• My eyebrows and eyelashes will be light.

So... What do you guys think is best for me? I'm trying to look more mysterious and I love getting reactions out of people. If I went blonde, I'd look like Touka but with blonde hair. If it helps, my eyes are blue and I'm generally pale. I love the look of pale skin and black hair. Also I don't care for brown hair on me because I'm trying to achieve a certain look. I don't know though...