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Reading the rant part of this is optional. If you just want to answer the question that's cool.

I'm tired of the sh*t that I deal with on a regular basis. I'm tired of feeling empty, and miserable every single day. I'm tired of forcing a smile on my face to keep everyone else happy. Every single person that has ever been a part of my life has screwed me over, an it's slowly torn me apart to being this lonley, bitter person. I'm never good enough for anything or anyone. I've tried getting out there and meeting new people, but it never seems to work. I keep telling myself that with roughly 7 billion people on this planet I should be able to find at least a few to be caring, reliable, selfless friends, and maybe if I'm lucky someone that could be more than that. So far I've been proven wrong. I don't understand what's wrong; why I struggle to even get remembered and yet the most selfish, arrogant people I know are constantly making friends, dating, and never get f***ed over. I always end up getting used and abandoned when I'm not needed. It's been this way as far back as I can remember and I'm just done with it. Everyone says things get better, but it's all empty. They don't know if it will or not, they just say it because it's the thing to say. I need someone to PROVE to me that the constant struggle was worthwhile. I don't want words, I want actions. I get that nothing is perfect and sh*t will always happen, but for most other people it seems that the good outweighs the bad. I don't even feel like I'm living anymore, just going through the motions of everyday with a smile that I can fake without effort.

No I am not currently suicidal. There's a difference between wanting to die and already feeling dead.

If anyone wants to offer insight on this I'm open, but the real question is if you're tired of people talking out thier ass and telling you everything will be ok.