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Word of warning, I have clinical depression.

Throughout my teenage life I entererd multiple toxic long distance relationships. Although some were shortlived, one lasted a few months and another an entire year. Each being abusive in different ways.

I've been avoiding relationships like the plague ever since; however, not exactly because I don't want to be in one. At this date in time I'm about to turn 22. I've had multiple years of being single since my last, year long relationship.

I know that it sounds like I need more time to heal, but I want to know if my growing acceptance of staying single till I die is a natural mindset. I'm not really interested in guys as a non-platonic relationship, so doubly so I intend on being alone.

My parents aren't too happy about this view of mine, and I love them dearly. Not only that, but ever since I was a kid I always thought I'd end up taking that path.

I don't doubt there are many women out there that understand this feeling but from a female's perspective. My only female friend told me she had similar feelings on giving up on having a love life. So I wanted to broaden this question to more people.

Thank you if you've read any of this. I apologize if this was a bit "woe is me" but posting this question felt important to me. I'm an introvert and don't have many people in my immediate circle that I wanted to drop a question like this on.

She is 18 and lives in Illinois. She grew up homeschooled and sheltered her entire life. She is a devout Catholic, and I was her first male friend and her first boyfriend. Although, we had an online relationship, and I saw her only once in person, which she concluded she did not have any romantic feelings for me. She is also a virgin.

I am 26 with barely a social life. I still live at home. I am not Catholic, but I was willing to convert. I only want a woman without a romantic past. Seeing that she met that criteria, she is perfect to me. She is also decently pretty.

I don't think I am gonna find another girl like her. Most women my age have had boyfriends, especially from their youth. In addition, in two years, most of my peers will be married.