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I’ve been with my girlfriend for 1.5 years. It’s been a smooth run, been great. Until recently.

Maybe I’m overreacting but I asked her about my penis size. She was like you’re fine. I asked her what’s perfect? She was like a bit bigger.

This really has me triggered. Like, at the same time I’m not good enough. Like why didn’t you go find that dick then, if you know it’s perfect?

I’ve dwelled on it for a week and think it may be best to end what was amazing as I don’t want to be with a girl that I will feel not worthy of.

I just feel very angry about everything. Like why the fuck would an inch or so more be better. I should be perfect already.

You do everything right, yet it gets thrown back at you. But I’m not sure if every girl is the same and desires that bigger size

I won't go into long details as there is so much I can't put everything into words.
My and my girlfriend have been dating for 1 year and a half now.
This year i found out she was cheating. I saw messages on her phone.
She first told me nothing happened execpt chatting.
Then I found out she went to a party and she was grinding the guy there.
She told me that she was drunk and nothing happened.
I later found out she used to text her every day saying things like I love you etc.
I then found out that she went to several parties and *danced* with many other *friends* while in relationship with me.

I confronted her about all of these issues and she told me that she will change.
That she will do anything to keep our relationship going.
So far she has done everything i asked her.
Except that when I tell her that I want to know what really happened wifh the guy she cheated me with, she gets moody, ends up blocking me on social media.

I once called the guy and ask him to show me their chat log.. He called her and she told him to erase *, some text messages they exchanged* before showing me screenshots..
Her reasoning is that she didn't want to lose me.

I am not perfect. I can't seem to move on until i know the whole thruth. But she won't give me that.

Im I a bad boyfriend for wanting to know so desperately what really happened?

Nb:sex between us hasn't been great since I found out.. Sometimes i feel that she doesn't want me.. Is it because she had been with someone else?

We're in a long distance relationship (even though it's not official yet) so our main way of communicating is by text. In the first weeks it was all perfect, she would text back immediatly and talk a lot. Nowadays she takes a long time to answer and doesn't say much when she replies. She still sends me photos and makes jokes but it doesn't feel the same. Like right now it's been 19 hours since she saw my last text and she hasn't replied yet. I know she is spending time with her family today but texting takes literally less than 1 minute. Plus, she has been active on social media and had time to write a tweet about her day. This is something she has also been doing a lot lately. Being active on social media but not replying. It makes me so pissed that i think i'm losing my feelings for her.

What should i do?