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When i was 14 years old i got pregnant to guy who was 4 years older than me who was my first love and i didn't tell my parents about it, but my father find out that and he keep me at the house because i didn't tell him who is the father. I couldn't tell him because my ex boyfriend say "don't mention my name even if someone finds out" and i did but my father was very closed minded and he felt shame because of me and he keep me very far with my aunt from everyone until i birth and he took my baby and i didn't see him/her again. i kept asking him about that and i want know anything about my baby but he didn't tell me anything, i forget that and i continue studying at the school and i met a guy then we got married after we finished college and we were happy and after a year he start talking about starting a family and having kids but i wasn't interested at all because i remembered what happened at the first time. I told him that i can't have kids and he kept asking questions but i couldn't answer and he divorced me because i was keeping things from him and now he wants me back after 3 years! I'm confused.
Please tell me that if i should forgive my father because he came to my house asking for forgiveness and i refused to talk to him so should i forgive him and keep asking him about my baby one more time or stop thinking about my baby and hate my father for what he did to me and back to my husband and be honest with him this time?
At least answer one of my questions i really need your answer to cheer me up and give me a hope in life again.