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Okay, so I never had it good, I use to get beaten from an inch of my life from my father. He is not a good person and use to traumatize me daily. That and from all the rejection I have been through. I became extremely shy to the point where girls just choose to be mean to me. Now I cannot get out of my shell. I just think that every girl thinks I'm a shy looser, and have a hard time believing that people are not evil. I mean I have a few good friends that I trust with my life, but other then those I just think people will do nothing but hurt me. I cannot get out my shell no matter how hard I try, no girl ever gives me any signals, nor do they ever approach me. All the girls in my social circle would give they're numbers to all my guy friends, but when I ask, they say "calm down kid". Not that I'm looking for a hook up, but why am I excluded. I'm shy, but not socially awkward, I act myself, and I just try to speak to women as a normal human being! I do have some sad negative thoughts, but I keep it to myself and you will always see a smile on my face, might be a fake smile, but you would never know. I'm a good person. A legit nice guy! Yes I want affection, but being a nice guy doesn't mean that I need to be drowned it, but no affection at all just hurts! I know their will be some comments saying man up, but people that have it like me know what I'am talking about and the people that think manning up will fix everything is just giving me a response that I don't want to hear. After failing miserably every time, I don't have any confidence to try again. I'm exhausted from the rejections, and I don't think I would be able to get out of my shell. Do you think I will be lonely for my entire being here on earth?