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Just trying to get some opinions from other people, as im sort of in a sticky situation now, since somehow I ended up dating two people at once, which was a horrible idea (I KNOW!)--it wasn't planned, and the timing was just atrocious but I just couldnt pass up the opportunity to see if it could work between an ex and I that I've always wished I could have another chance with; and at the same time as things with an ex go, I was insecure it would actually work this time around, so selfishly I didn't break up with the guy I had started seeing before my ex came back in the picture out of fear that my ex would do all the same things that made us break up before. I figured id probably get my ex out of system, see he was the same and then be happy with the guy i was seeing without all the "what ifs" hanging around in my head that put a damper on any new relationship I was in. But unfortunately--or fortunately depending on how you look at it--my ex had changed a lot, grown up a ton and its been a solid two years now, so I think its real personal growth on his end and not just some fleeting attempt to prove to me he's different. But like I said, yes its been 2 years! I've been SUPER slow and guarded in both relationships and have made sure not to allow to get too serious, but i feel the time to make a decision is VERY soon approaching whether I want to make one or not :/