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Ok so I don't consider myself a tomboy but I grew up with my brother, and people have noticed me being not-so-girly. My friends are very cliché like, they like shopping, makeup, makeover sessions and gossip/talking about boys. I'M NOT. Sure, I wear heels and wear nail polish. (idk i consider that that makes me feminine) BUT I'm lazy, can't be bothered to wear makeup because it's expensive and I'd suck at it, I hate shopping, I hate gossip and blabla. Point is, my friends started saying I don't care about them, that I don't "prove my friendship". So it started an argument, because what the fuck, I have to prove? I'm friends with someone? WHAT. So out of anger, the argument strayed away and it became more personal. I sort of cut my ties, and for good. (I think they blocked me but not sure) It was hurtful at first, and kind of wondering if i was wrong to cut ties? I don't really know, but when I shared this with my mother, she said "tell thek to *fak you*" (with her foreign accent) (was beautiful) (mothers know best? Like that tangled song?)

So I had a huge car accident, but miraculously was intact.. Doctor said it's a miracle.. And I think someone protected me. I tried finding out and the some evp session recordings where I found out I have a spirit guide named Matthew.

My question is.. I want find his grave, in a grave yard.. In a HUGE parc/grave yard.. I would look at every grave until I find * Matthew from 'date' to 'date'* I will read every single grave, do the whole parc, and if I had too (but probly won't need too) I would do every grave yard in my city. I really want to find him to thank him and give him love.

Is this extreme tho? Am I crazy?

for the past 8 months this attractive, confident, well- dressed mid 30s executive has been requesting private tutoring sessions regularly (2 hour sessions once or twice a week) at fancy restaurants of my choice and from the start has insisted on paying 3x my hourly rate and we only actually study for 10 - 30 minutes and it's very, very light. all inclusive he probably pays around ¥30,000 each time we meet and doesn't do receipts for tax deductions.

the rest of the time we just have conversations in japanese. once in awhile he will make a subtle comment about his position. he sometimes talks about his winnings in horserace bets and slots. sometimes his leg "accidentally" touches mine ever so slightly. i ignore it.

he comes across as very simple and agendaless but i've noticed that he tries to "appeal" to me by remembering things that i've mentioned or hinted about my background or what i like etc and showing appreciation or that he's associated with it or supports it, not when i mention it but weeks or months later. it's very strategic.

from the way he describes his personal life he seems single. i don't want to pry. he doesn't ask me either. i'm not exactly interested but the fact that he hasn't given up or gotten bored or pissed at my being late to every meeting really sets him apart from other men. especially since he has a pretty busy work schedule with lots of meetings and several business trips every month.

he has never tried to make a move or ask me out on an actual date or offer to drive me home. he only wants to meet on weekdays because he says he's busy with gambling on weekends.

he seems smart about budgeting his finances as he doesn't seem to want to waste money on other things. he doesn't seem like a frivolous person.

i've tutored a lot of men in person and this is a bit unusual. most just want to flirt and go on dates instead of paying to sit there under the pretense of studying. usually they give up when they see that it's not going to happen.