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I know the easiest thing that I could do is to delete it but instagram is what everyone uses. Before I didn't have one and I felt lost and confused since everyone else was connected on there. I finally got one and ended up getting 23 followers from following people. What makes me sad is the fact that your follower ratio and amount of followers and likes kinda determines your popularness in the real world and online (how much people like you). At first I didn't care and I didn't use instagram a lot anyway but now I do after realizing a few things and getting certain comments. One thing that happend is that my friend that I grew up with unfollowed me on everything because I wasn't as popular as her (i guess I ruined her image?) another thing is that my crush didn't follow me back even though I would talk to him on kik and he followed strangers (but those were mostly hot teenagers). When I finally commented on one of his pictures he chose that moment to embaress me (I felt so inferior then and still do now and I kept over thinking that to the point where I cried in school today). My friend also noticed the amount of followers that I had and said "you think you're so cool but you only have 23 followers when I have 10,000" she meant that in a teasing way though but it still stung. I'm also not that popular in school and sometimes I'm by myself or sit at lunch by myself. I only have 6 people that I can call a friend at this school, but they all have other friends that they talk to more then me, I'm usually that person that is awkwardly standi ng near a group of people since I'm not friends with anyone but one person (who didn't introduce me btw). I also have so much time on my hands that it saddens me (as in no one wanting to hang out). At my old school I had really close friends but I moved and one of them thinks that she's too popular for us. I overthinked all of this during the day and it made me realize how lame I was.

I'm a sophomore, quiet, no friends, social anxiety, basically a giant loser. I was planning on going through the school year without getting involved in things like relationships or whatever, but on the second week of school a Spanish exchange student caught my eye. He was shy, smart, nice, and cute. I had no (still don't) expectation of him even noticing me, much less talking or getting feelings for me. I tried to write him off and ignore him but I began to notice him staring at me at times (probably because I'd cast a few lingering glances his way and he's thinking, "Who tf is this creepy girl who keeps looking at me?") and we talked on three occasions; the first he asked if we could both review our goals for the school year (had to review them with three different people), the second I gathered up my courage and asked him questions about studying abroad, and the third he came over and shot hoops with me for a minute.

I'll admit, I was beginning to get my hopes up that maybe a crush liked me for once, only to have him ask a girl that is better than me in every way (pretty, popular, nice, no hard feelings towards her) with this really cute sign that said "I came all the way from Spain to ask you to Homecoming". I'm really happy for them, they're both great people, but I admit I may have shed a few tears in the bathroom during lunch (pathetic, I know).

Later that day, during English, I was feeling much better and talked to my teacher about studying abroad (she'd worked in Hong Kong and I've always wanted to study abroad). My crush was listening intently and pulled up a chair. I caught him staring at me with his mouth open (cue moment where I was embarrassed of how ugly I am and felt bad at him for having to look at me) for a split second but quickly looked away. I haven't looked at him at all after I found out other than a few side glances due to me not wanting to come off as creepy. Do I even have a chance? I'm pretty sure I don't.