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I was about to leave for bootcamp in like 2 days and I had been holding back my feelings for him for quite some time. I finally decided that I didn't want to leave before telling him how I truly feel. I knew there was a chance that he didn't feel the same way, but that's a risk I was willing to take. I was afraid he would disappear, because that's all I've ever known. He didn't say it back and he actually said he was glad that I told him. I was worried it would change our relationship, but it didn't. Not in the least. We're still the same as we've always been. Keep in mind, we aren't actually dating. We don't have a label in our relationship, but we both care for each other very deeply. He just says he's not ready to be in love again or be in a relationship again yet. He says he doesn't think about his feelings and things like that. That makes no sense to me. I'm big into astrology and I'm a Scorpio. Yes, I know, Scorpios are notorious for being highly emotional and it's true. We are. I get jealous when he texts his girl friends all the time and he knows this. He said it bothers him a little bit, but not much. He understands that I have a jealous nature. We became friends in April of 2014 and at first I didn't like him in a romantic way, but we started hanging out a lot as friends and kinda became inseparable and just got super close. I absolutely fell in love with his personality. He's a Leo. He's goofy, extroverted and he's a big kid at heart. Which I love, because I'm introverted and I take things too seriously. When I stay the night with him he holds me and rubs my hair until I fall asleep. Periodically he will squeeze me tighter and kiss my forehead while he holds me. These feel like things he does out of love. I FEEL like he loves me, but he just won't admit it. I could be wrong though. I said the L word a few times in my letters from bootcamp, but I never say it in person because I don't want to make him feel pressured or uncomfortable. So what do y'all think?