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Ok, my boyfriend and I do love each other a lot. But when it comes to sex & oral we are almost incompatible as some might think...
I love to please him, from fetishes, to just how he likes it.
I take my time on him and really feel his thing and kind of get in tune when I'm down there. But After I give him some head or something naturally, I get extremely turned on, but until recently I was scared to ask for sexual favors in return...
Now I asked him to lick me down there and after he did it once, I wanted it more... I have given him head almost everyday for as long as we've been together, and I only have orgasmed once (from his tounge) Now he is telling me to get over myself, and that I'm selfish... But I hold my self up with just my back and an extra 35 lbs (because of pregnancy) just to let him finish... am I selfish?

Pros
1. We love each other.
2. He wants to have a family.
3. He's a hard worker.
4. He trusts me.
5. He honors his parents.
6. He's faithful, and willing to commit. (We're engaged.)
7. He has good manners. (Opens the door for me, picks up the bill when we go out to eat.)
8. I can rely on him, and know he's always going to be there for me.
9. He is willing to protect me. (Says he would die for the people he loves.)
10. He loves animals and treats them with respect.

Cons
1. Doesn't want to stop sining. (Or even try to. He says he believes in God, and he's a Christian but does things and wants to do things that a Christian shouldn't do. Were unequally yoked. He never wants to read the Bible with me, go to church with me, or even pray for me.)
2. He always puts himself first. (We always have to do what he wants to do or we don't do anything at all.)
3. He is dishonest, and I have caught him in lies.
4. Wants to have sex with a guy.. I just found this out. (Says it's a one time experience just to try it.)
5. Wants to go to bars. (Says it's just while he's young. One time he stayed out all night and never came home till the next day so now I don't allow him to go to bars at all. Caught him one time after it and I know about a total of two times.)
6. Wants to watch another guy have sex with me. (I refuse, I was a virgin when I meet him and already feel guilty for not being married before hand. I believe you become one with the person you share that with and I'm not sharing myself with anyone else except who I love.)
7. Can be hurtful when he talks to me. (Calls me names or tunes me out when I'm talking to him.)
8. Throws things when he gets angry. (Has broken three of my phones in the past, put holes in the walls, and broke my back door. Still never replaced or fixed any of it. Plus other things.)
9. He disrespects my family.
10. We don't communicate as much. (He never calls or texts me anymore during the day when he used to all the time.)

This might be a bit long, please read it all;

I dated this guy for a few months before I found out that I was pregnant. He was excited at first, then changed his tune. He told me that the main reason why his relationship with his ex failed was because he wanted to have kids with her but she didn't want to become a mother at all. He then ended up saying that on one hand, he's happy he's finally having a child and on the other hand, he wishes it was with her. This scarred me a lot. Days later, he told me he wanted no part in raising this child and cut me off. He changed his mind towards the end of the pregnancy and worked really hard to get me to see him favourably. Now a year later, we have a wonderful little baby and live together.

He is honestly such a loving partner and a phenomenal father who made a terrible mistake. But there are days when I hear his remark about wishing that he had this child with his ex instead in my head, and it makes me doubt if he really loves me. I feel like in years to come he's going to feel that he only stayed with me because of the baby and never truly come to love me.

I have always been healthily confident in myself until now; I'm not the type of person to be jealous of exes, but now his past relationship with her makes me feel insecure. I find myself (embarrassingly) creeping her Facebook and making her out to be this amazing person. She seems much more talented, successful and adventurous than I. Then it makes me second-guess why he's here with me now. But he treats me amazingly well and shows me that he genuinely loves me in all ways possible! Please give me your honesty; does he love me? Or is he settling?