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Do you think black girls tend to get jealous of us white girls? Personally from my experience, I have been called a hoe, dumb and ugly just for being white. The funny thing is that I have lots of black guys after me, but none of them made any negative comments about me. It's only black girls who do.
I had this black friend who clearly got jealous of me when I told her that I recently started dating a black guy. Actually, I didn't tell her the race of the guy I was dating initially, but when I showed her a picture of him, I could see the change in her eyes and how she went from being curious and supportive to being less interested. She gave me this annoying attitude for days until I told her off that being black doesn't give her a reason to br a bitch.

Now I find out that she is talking to one of the boys I had a crush on. LOL. She is clearly trying to upset me but what I actually find sad is how many black girls have to pull us white girls down purely because of how jealous they are. They also have to constantly brag about their non-white traits to the point where it's nothing more than self praise. Us white girls dont need to do that since we have natural beauty, lots of guys has told me this. I dont need to tell myself this ;) the guy I'm dating also has told me his experience with black girls who basically act like incels and blame other black guys for everything. My ex friend also did this to both black guys and white girls.

Anyway here are pictures of us both
This is me:

This is her. Notice that she has to use lots of makeup and filters to compensate for her lack of looks

I have a huge crush on this guy who owns a cafe. We always flirt when we interact and it gets sexual, especially when he is with other guys.

Examples of his recent behaviour include;

- always staring at me, even when I’m not looking at him but I can see him in the corner of my eye.
- he winks at me

-when masks became mandatory he told me I look sexy because it makes my eyes stand out.
- he made me remove my mask for a few seconds, stared at my face and told me I could put it back on.

- he has given me advice on legal problems I’m having. When he was talking to me he stood extremely close and was staring deep into my eyes.

- genuinely looked concerned when I told him about the situations I’m in.

- he complimented my hair colour saying it suits me because it makes my blue eyes stand out even more. He even said to his friend “look at the tone of her hair”

- when he left he smiled at me and didn’t took his eyes off me as he climbed the stairs and was out of sight.

- seems to get jealous and accused me of fancying a security guard. When I said I didn’t fancy him, he said it was bullshit.

-keeps asking if I have a boyfriend yet.

- pulled me in for a hug, he put his hand on my head and pushed it towards his shoulder/chest area and then quickly realised he shouldn’t have done it because of covid.

- when we are on our own he sings along or whistles to the music in the back ground

So there is this guy that goes to a few of my classes and we are both majoring in the same program. I will be honest there was a part of me that knew he was gay based on how he talks, his mannerisms, and so on. Anyway since last semester I started to question why he acts so strange around me. He would act like he is terrified to death of me (keep in mind I am an alternative girl), sometimes he avoids me, he will feel comfortable talking with other people except me (in fact he will often grow quite with me), when I try to be friendly with him during a few exercises in my acting classes, sometimes he acts like a cat got his tongue when I try to talk to him (do keep in mind I am a shy and introverted person so even I am like wtf), one time at the end of an acting exercise I did with him, he gave me a thumbs up (I am not sure what that means but I assume that was his way of being approved of something), he said my name wrong a few times on accident, whenever we do lock eyes with each other he will look at me with relaxed eyes, he fixes his hair when he sees me from a distance, he came up and tried to strike a conversation with me once, he will say bye to me sometimes especially when it is just the two of us around and nobody else, one time his face lite up when he said bye to me, when I did acknowledge his existence and said hi to him he would give this prolonged eye contact, and in the beginning of the second semester we bumped into each other and he acted surprised saying “oh it’s you... good morning”. Those are just the few examples. Anyway, I am not sure what the reason is for his behavior around me... is he secretly attracted to me? Does he have a straight crush on me? Is he repulsed by me? Is it because he knows that I like him and trying to keep his distance? Does he want to be my friend but doesn’t know what to say to me? I don’t know what his deal is maybe I am over reading his actions when it turns out to be nothing? Someone please send help, lol.