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I went to live in Korea when I was about 5. I left when I was 17. I grew up with this boy, because his older brother was best friends with mine. He was only 7 months older than me. We were close but we went to different schools. I started to develop strong feelings for him when we were 14 but I was too shy to tell him and his other best friend, a girl from his school, didn't like me and was kind of bullying me behind his back. I think she wanted him for herself. So I just kept it to myself.

Months before I left the country, I decided to go out with a guy from my class. When he found out, he ignored me for a week. It didn't work out and he started talking to me again. He started acting different. He became really sweet, and he would even pick me up from school. We started hanging out more without his other best friend. One night I even swore he was about to kiss me, but then it got awkward and he left. I didn't tell him I was going back to my country though. But something has changed. I could feel it. But after I left, we lost contact.

Now, he's sort of famous. I can see his pictures everywhere on the internet. He's part of a label and has this cold persona, different from the cute guy he was back then. The other best friend is kind of famous as well. I guess they decided to join the music industry together.

I still feel the same whenever I look at him. It's been 4 years but I still see that boy who rescued me from everything. But I guess it's just not possible anymore. Should I just move on and let this feeling fade away? Or should I let him know how I felt back then?

(Sorry for the long story. Just felt like letting it all out)